Oh, Jesus!
Ugh!
John, it's me!
This is bullshit, motherfucker!
John, come on! Answer the door!
I've got your box.
Oh my God!
Wow! Smells great in here!
Jeez! When was the last time you opened a window?
John, where are you? I don't have a lot of time.
It's dark in here.
Did you ask for the place that Sid Vicious died in?
John?
John, are you even here?
- What did the letter say? - Honey, I don't know.
What do you mean, you don't know?
You said you returned it to the front desk.
- I didn't say I didn't know. - You just did.
You said: "Honey, I don't know."
Rupert, the letter wasn't for you.
It was the front desk's mistake.
And sending it back down without showing it to me
was just irrepressible?
Rupert, enough!
Mom, it's the first chance I get to meet him
after all those years.
Honey, I know, but you have a big day.
- You opened the letter. - Yes.
Then you realized it wasn't for me...
Yes, and I already apologized.
- ...and just sent it back down? - Yes.
Well, the front desk couldn't have sent up
a letter that wasn't for me
if they didn't have a letter that was
in the first place.
It's pretty clear they sent my letter to the wrong person.
So there's a letter waiting for me at the hotel.
Yes. Yes, probably.
All right, get yourself something else to eat...
...whatever you want,
and I will call them right away.
Look, we will go to the hotel,
and I'm sure there'll be a letter waiting for you,
and you'll probably meet later this afternoon.
Was it written in green ink?
What?
Was it written in green ink?
I... I don't remember.
Honey, everything's gonna be all right, OK?
We have shocking breaking news
just now at 2:31.
We have word that TV idol John Francis Donovan has died
at the age of 29.
The actor gained prominence
in the American television industry,
first as Hellsome High's Adam White on the WV...
The thing I've forgotten to work on is myself.
This is ridiculous!
No reception. What fucking year is this?
Oh, fuck's sake!
Hal, it's me. You can't do this.
I'm on a flight to London at 2:30.
Well, my appointment in Paris got pushed, didn't it?
I got your email this morning,
and I couldn't respond because my router's screwed, OK?
Just listen to me.
So, I've come here to greet him in person,
because I'm a civilized woman, all right?
But I'm not writing the piece. You can't make me do it.
I don't care!
Just hire another journalist, postpone the interview.
Robert fucking Turner's not going anywhere, is he?
I don't give a shit about getting his name right,
because I'm not doing it.
I haven't even read his stupid book.
How am I supposed to conduct an interview with someone
if I haven't read...
What, and I'm gonna write about some actor du jour
who's unearthed whatever story because he's craving momentum?
I've got standards, you know?
Fine! OK?
Yep, I don't wanna talk to you anymore.
I'll do it. Mm-hmm, one hour.
And if that little squirt gives me one iota of sass,
I swear to God...
Yep! Fine, Hal!
Bye! Goodbye!
Can you believe they still use these old pay phones
here in 2017?
I can see a coherence with the rest of Eastern Europe.
Production pays for some shitty mobile
while we're shooting here,
but it keeps shutting down.
I'll just, uh, just use the phone.
I'll be with you in a minute so we can start the interview.
I'm so excited.
I'll just, uh, just be in there...
OK!
...while you make your call.
September 2017, "Turner publishes memoir
"composed of his entire correspondence with Donovan.
"Donovan died of an overdose."
Hmm!
No, please don't rush. Take your time.
My, do they feed you at The Times?
Asking out of sheer curiosity, really.
Please don't think me sassy.
"The sassy actor stormed into the Art Nouveau decorated café,
"his hair disheveled, sporting a faded army jacket."
I'm feeling this!
I forgot they allowed you to smoke in here.
Oh, but just for a few more months, unfortunately.
So, what did you think of the book?
As you're well aware, I haven't read your book,
as I wasn't supposed to be conducting this interview.
As we're both here now, let's get started
so that maybe I can catch my flight.
When they emailed me yesterday afternoon that
it'd be you doing the piece,
I read some of your articles.
Yesterday afternoon?
You're quite versatile
for a political reporter.
You contributed to this
environmental- apocalypse piece I read.
The one about the, uh, what is it? West Coast...
- The Juan de Fuca subduction zone. - Yeah!
A 9.2 magnitude earthquake will ravage the West Coast?
When is this supposed to be happening, already?
We're half a century late for it.
Could be now, could be 10-20 years,
by which time we still wouldn't have started this interview.
Oh, you're not recording?
And you want anything?
Double espresso, please.
She spoke in foreign tongues,
and from then on, he was enslaved.
Oh, I was anxious you'd never get
to the use of the 3rd person.
Now, I'd very much like it if we could begin now
so that I can maybe catch my flight.
Uh-huh, well, if you miss it,
I'm pretty sure that thing can fly you to London.
Do you want me to write this piece or not, Mr. Turner?
Yeah? Good.
I think everyone remembers the scandal,
how the letters were revealed, et cetera, et cetera...
Why don't you back up all the way
to how things started with you and John F. Donovan?
Well, we know how they started.
He answered one of your fan letters.
Yeah.
And then an unlikely correspondence began.
- Mm-hmm. - That's the fairy tale.
Why don't you rewind to...
When the fairy tale ended?
If you like.
The year would be 2006.
I had turned 11 that summer.
I, uh...
No, I can still smell the gas-like odor
of the felt-tip pen he used.
I can still hear the pen
scratching on the sheets of paper.
We'd always handwrite every letter, never typed or emailed.
For John, things started to go wrong
when they were starting to be great.
Everybody was starting to pay attention
to the new kid on the block,
saying that he was about to become the next big deal.
But to us, who had been following him since day one,
it was very clear that he already was.
He really was.
Yes! Yes!
Great, John! We got it.
Thanks!
No, just send me a synopsis of this conversation.
You were great, hon.
We'll get photo approval, right, Barb?
Yeah, and you're gettin' a pony for Christmas.
What does that mean?
It's Vanity Fair, John!
Pretend it's wonderful and stop being such a big bitch.
- Rhonda! - Yes, darling! I'm here!
Hay stacks were genius.
- Thanks, doll! - Thank you, Barbara.
Why'd they make me so oily?
Trust me, it's working.
That whole slutty mineworker look is huge
in the Midwest.
So, Prada shipped the suit to the office,
and Mel delivered it to your place.
Miuccia says "break a leg" and then some Italian shit
that I didn't understand.
John! The season finale was dope, man!
The hidden cameras, that was the shit!
Thanks, man. That's sweet of you.
Is it true you're playing Jack Harvest?
He's my favorite superhero ever!
Fingers crossed, but I don't know for sure.
John, I love you so much!
She thinks you're so cute.
John! John!
Sorry, that's all for today.
I love you!
I'm having lunch with Chris next week.
He knows you're George's choice for Jack Harvest.
It's looking good, hon!
It's not just about me, John.
It would've meant the world to Larry if you'd been there.
- You owe him. - I was out of town!
- As grateful as I am to Larry, I can't clone myself. - Thank God!
If you could, you'd never take your dick out of your own mouth.
Thank you for that image.
Don't pretend like you haven't thought about it before.
John, tonight's the season premier of Hellsome High,
Any hint on whether Adam's parents
will accept him for who he is?
I can't spoil it for everyone.
Amy, you are glowing with fuego! Who?
Giambattista Valli.
- Ooh, is that vintage? - It is now!
I'm the luckiest guy in the world.
Rupert!
Rupert?
- Rupert! - Sorry.
I'm looking forward to reading your notes from today's class.
I'm assuming it'll be comprehensive.
He was "gaydreaming" again!
Your preoccupation with your classmates' sexuality
is becoming alarmingly obsessive!
Stop laughing!
You must include 3 enumerations
and 4 figures of speech from the list I provided last Tuesday.
And may I...
Everybody, I'd like to remind you that next week,
your presentations are due on Monday.
And don't forget, the object you bring in
must have emotional significance to you in real life.
Don't tell me about your weekend at Hogwarts!
School had always been a refuge as a kid.
But I got older
and was introduced to the meanness of guys.
Well, boys.
To survive the jungle, you had to become an animal.
But for me, it was easier
to just sink into my own head and TV.
Hmm!
Another occidental tale of survival from bullying. Bingo!
Well, no, but for years, all I cared about was John
and that TV show in which he starred,
and around which my whole world revolved back then.
Have you ever confided this obsession in anyone else before?
Uh, what sort of interlocutor are we talking about here?
I don't know, professional?
I haven't seen... What's the name of the show?
Anyway, just carry on.
What's your name again?
Sorry?
I, uh, I can't remember your name.
Audrey. Audrey Newhouse.
Yes. Yes, sorry.
Uh, that's...
just not a common name, Audrey.
You seem to think I'm here to talk about some icon
or an extremely honorable body of work
or to promote some cultural happening.
But I came here thinking we'd talk about influence
and identity and, you know, TV.
So, if you're looking for contrived notions
and dumb quotes on the biz to mock me,
you'll be disappointed.
This isn't about business, OK? This is not about art.
This... this is about a man saving a child's life.
So, I don't care that John was untalented.
I don't care that what he did was ridiculous
or that what he did was shit.
I don't care that his story, in this time and age,
sounds abysmal to you.
I know I'm not rebuilding Aleppo, OK?
We're on the same boat.
And that coffee's decaf, Audrey.
OK, moving on.
Honey, I couldn't watch you suffer anymore.
I had to understand.
Mom, I'm 17.
Or 30.
Adam, just tell me none of it was true.
None of it was true...
- What did I miss? - Calm down!
I don't wanna miss any more lines!
Shoes on the carpet! OK, the mother knows.
She saw him using his hidden powers. She taped him.
You could say hi.
What? Hi! Mrs. White knows?
Of course! The hidden cameras in the season finale!
Aaah!
Oh my God! Did you see what he just did?
He used his powers in front of her!
Look! Look at the keys! Look at the keys!
The CGI is amazing! Look at that!
Rupert, you have a package. I think it's a poster.
I left it on your bed.
OK!
Honey, what are you?
It's just like you said, Mom.
I'm different.
The opening credits are coming! They're here!
Oh my God!
That's a new power! That is a new power!
Oh my God, this is amazing! This is freaking amazing!
Rupert, voice!
Keep it down. The neighbors.
Oh my God! Oh my God! Holy cow!
Shhh!
I'm so happy right now!
Mom, are you even paying attention?
Come on, this is Hellsome High!
I was born for this moment! I came out of you just for this!
Keep it down.
- YES! - Keep it down.
Yes! This is great!
That's the best power!
Thank you, God! Thank you for Hellsome High!
Thank you! I was born for this!
I've been waiting for this moment all my life!
My father had left when I was 2,
and since then, it had always been my mom and me.
Leaving America had sort of
precipitated an unabashed coming of age.
My mom and I, we were barely speaking anymore.
Now that we had moved,
I was basically spending all of my time in my room.
The kids at school were mocking me
for either being the new guy, the child actor and...
Yes!
...in my own perspective, all my dreams had disappeared.
The only one that had survived was...
John.
I'm not gonna lie to you.
It's been hard, of course.
He doesn't have a British accent or the energy at all.
So we gotta look for projects
trying to cast an American kid living here
or other very specific roles.
And I won't pretend it's made the move easier for him,
but, hmm, he'll... he'll find his place.
Mm-hmm.
I'd left a lot behind, moving to England,
but the letters had followed.
The same night I saw that pilot of the show he starred in,
I wrote John a letter.
And to my great surprise, he...
He answered!
Yeah!
And what started as a one-off carried on for years.
Until his death, actually.
"Style is knowing who you are."
Hold on a minute.
And your mother had no idea?
How could that escape her notice?
I mean, she never saw any of those letters in the mail?
I think a great deal of things went unnoticed by my mom
back at the time.
I mean, she was... she was overwhelmed.
She was never home,
and, well, I was in charge of the mail, anyway.
So you intercepted them?
I did.
Why? Weren't you proud?
I was, but more than proud, I was scared,
scared that this very special thing,
that it'd be taken away from me.
It was the only connection I had with the life I dreamed of,
so I protected it,
until I thought the day I'd leave that place,
become an actor...
work with John.
I knew there was a whole world out there
and that in it, John lived his life...
...far, far away from mine.
Amy and John grew up together.
They'd always been friends.
Amy was moving to New York
to become an actress like she'd always dreamed,
and he tagged along.
They were surprised at how people took for granted
they were together since day one,
and they went on with it.
One thing led to another...
...for John, mostly.
He kept mentioning the loneliness.
I knew it meant
there was some company he couldn't afford having.
What do you mean by "company he couldn't afford"?
Well, in a life like this, in, like, his,
everything and everyone in it becomes a risk.
Hmm...
Yeah, the attention that you craved,
it becomes the scrutiny that you're trying to escape.
John often slept in hotel rooms.
I asked him in one of the early letters why,
and he said it was because it made him feel less lonely,
which seemed bizarre, a hotel room being by definition lonely.
He later replied that the feeling was, uh, alleviated
by the fact that most of the people in all the other rooms
were alone at the same time he was.
I mean, it's pretty big
for New York City,
and, uh, you know, it's modest.
It's kind of a piece of shit,
but it's been home for a little bit now, so...
It's not too... too expensive, either.
When Amy and I first moved into the city,
we lived in Queens off Flushing.
A total shithole.
We couldn't afford electricity for the first couple of months,
so we had to light the whole place with candles.
- Shit! - Yeah.
One of the neighbors kept complaining
that they smelled... they smelled smoke.
When the firemen showed up,
I think they thought we were sacrificing virgins.
We've never been into virgins.
Um, are you working tomorrow?
Are you shooting something right now?
Uh, no. No, I'm not working right now.
I got a 7:00 a.m. call on Hellsome,
a crazy day full of stunts.
Oh. Yeah.
Um, yeah.
Oh, I'll just... I'll just have another beer...
...and then I'll be on my way.
I gotta start studying anyway.
I have this audition on Wednesday...
...I actually auditioned for Hellsome.
I can't.
You can't?
Um, uh...
Uh, I've got an early start tomorrow.
Oh, you... Uh, yeah, I...
Dude, you should get some rest, anyway.
You got... 7:00 a.m.? That's early.
Yeah, sorry.
It's OK. I'll... I'll just let myself out.
Um, thanks for the beer.
And you know all this from the letters?
Not all of it.
John never put me, as a child, in a position
where I'd read things I wouldn't understand.
He would rarely mention his private life,
not to me, not to anyone.
There were just rules, he said,
if they were broken, that would destroy him.
♪♪ I'm the son of rage and love ♪
♪ The Jesus of suburbia ♪
♪ The bible of none of the above ♪
♪ On a steady diet of ♪
♪ Soda pop and Ritalin ♪
♪ No one ever died for their sins in hell ♪
♪ As far I can tell ♪
Mom, you up early or you're up late?
She'll be here Friday if your schedule changes.
And I'm making my Ina Garten Beef Bourguignon.
Your favorite!
- It's so not! - Excuse me, since when...
Number 2, please. I don't hate it.
...is Beef Bourguignon not your favorite meal, Jonathan?
Since you stopped listening to people, Ma.
And please, please don't call me Jonathan.
I'll make something else, and just for you.
Fine. I'm happy with the beef.
And what is wrong with "Jonathan"?
Anyway, I can make something else, honey.
I'm fine with the beef.
Let's go. Let's see it.
Stop fucking around!
You didn't drive 87 miles in the middle of the night
for the pleasure of my company.
His name's Will.
- Is that what it is? - Will Jefford Jr.
We met last summer, hung out a couple of times.
OK.
I don't know, I... I like him.
Mm-hmm?
He's cute.
What? What, am I supposed to say "hot"?
Why, that's a hot guy.
Don't see guys that hot every day.
Oh, shut the fuck up!
So, what's his deal?
There is no deal.
How many more times are you gonna come over here,
showing me pics with that dreamy smile on your face like...
I haven't got a dreamy smile.
Yes, you do. You go like this...
What about Amy?
She's used to it.
Oh, she's used to it. Still going with that?
We are. We're...
- We're used to it, James. - Yeah.
- We're OK. - OK.
John...
You guys still don't understand.
- Don't! - Fuck off!
Jim! Jimmy! Bitch-ass motherfucker!
Hey, fuck off! You know how this ends.
What's the problem?
Will Jefford Jr...
Wow!
This guy is gonna die at least 4 minutes after me.
Shut up!
Look at all the seconds he's collecting contracting words.
That is really something. You're impressed by this?
He's really smart.
Oh, is he?
There you go, my prince.
"You" of course spelled with a "U"
since we're contracting.
John had been going to his brother's house
for their garage ritual for years.
Yep!
Jimmy told me that.
I think it was one of the only things in his life
that actually made John...
happy.
- Good morning! - Good morning! How are you?
Guys, this guy here, this is Will.
Although we never wrote it in the letters,
John and I had reached a point of no return in our lives.
I think inviting Will into his world was John's own way
of unconsciously sabotaging
pretty much everything he had built.
Of course, he didn't know that then.
And you?
And... Sorry, what?
And you?
You said John and yourself were in...
that you'd reached points of no return.
Hmm...
I'm curious to know what that was
for a 10-year-old boy.
- Well, it can be many things. - Mm-hmm?
But that isn't the point.
Then what is the point, please, Mr. Turner?
The point is a lot of children are told
that they or their dreams don't exist or matter
simply because they're young.
And you know what?
Most children will believe you if you tell them that.
They kept telling me again and again.
But I decided not to believe them.
Hello, little girl.
Rupert! What are you still doing out here?
My mom's late.
What happened to your face?
I fell.
Oh, I see.
"I can't let you on the boat
"without your parents, young man!
"There's another boat that leaves for America in 3 days."
So cruel!
God, I love it!
There, take some.
You're good.
Please, I'm terrible.
Carry on!
"Please, sir,
"I know you're not supposed to let people on without a ticket."
"I most certainly am not!"
Oh, sorry, I dropped it.
No, it's all right.
Is this a friendship necklace?
I used to have one of these.
No, certainly not friendship. My mom has the same one.
I got the first letter of her name.
She's got the first letter of mine.
Oh, how beautiful!
Yeah.
Party's over, I guess.
Where were you? I was worried sick!
You were late, so Miss Kureshi drove me.
It's no trouble. I stayed late for some marking myself, so...
Thanks, Miss Kureshi.
- What happened to your face? - I fell.
Go inside. I'll take care of you in a second.
It's my turn to get a scolding, Rupert!
No, not at all.
It's no trouble dropping him. I don't live very far away.
You know, I teach Rupert English in the afternoon, so...
I know who you are, Miss Kureshi.
Well, thank you so much for looking after Rupert.
I want names, Rupert. Who did this to you?
You know, a little less eye-rolling would be nice.
You don't even know what happened!
I can see what happened. I'm not blind.
What difference does it make?
Well, you know what,
if you tell me who these kids are,
I can give their parents a phone call.
Mom, that's pathetic! This isn't anything new.
I'm small, I'm new, I act.
A taller dude who's got 3 girlfriends
and is on the soccer team
bullies me.
I marvel at the originality.
And Miss Kureshi says ignoring people is our strongest weapon,
by the way.
Miss Kureshi should write a book.
Miss Kureshi does what she loves in life
and is a perfectly reliable adult.
Well, Rupert, if I'm not cool enough to help you,
help yourself, OK?
If you're scared of something, you gotta stand up and face it.
Alan Parrish's dad said that to him,
and then he got swallowed up into Jumanji.
Well, then, you're next!
What would you know about standing and facing things?
You're the first one to run away!
That's what you did with Dad,
and that's what you did with acting!
And that stuff you put on my lips tastes like piss!
Brat!
Oh!
Look at you! Am I being served?
Just kidding!
Sorry we're late.
Oh, what a nice surprise!
I didn't think you guys would make it!
Faith, come up!
Amy and I were supposed to go to that thing,
but it got canceled.
Ma, I don't like it on the neck!
I can't help it. You smell so good!
That Swiss Army!
Oh, Amy, feels like it's been forever!
I stopped wearing Swiss Army. You know that.
- No! When? - When I finished puberty.
Oh, shut up and give me another hug!
I already gave you a hug, Ma!
I know, but I'm not counting. Come here, you!
Oh, you smell so good too! You both smell so good!
What's your perfume tonight, Ma?
Oh! L'Air du Temps.
Did you bring me some from Canal Street?
I told you all those perfumes spoiled.
Oh, who cares? Nobody can tell.
- Whoo! - There's my favorite aunt!
Holy Jesus, Mary and Joseph!
- Shit! - Are these ghosts?
Are you Adam White?
Now, you're not gonna cast a spell on me, are ya?
No!
Hey! Oh!
Be careful!
He doesn't like too much hugging or touching!
- Good to see you, Anne. - Oh, you too, honey!
Oh, you smell so good!
Thank you.
Oh God, Amy! Look at that coat!
Dressed for success!
Oh! Grace, I thought you said they couldn't make it.
Bet he did it on purpose! "Look at me, look at me!" Huh?
But then when was he ever on time for anything?
Story of his life and his dad's!
- Oh, wonderful! - I'm gonna open this wine!
Looking so fancy-shmancy...
And so it begins.
Fee, fi, fo, fum,
I smell the blood of a Beef Bourguignon!
- Oh! - Whoo!
Back by popular demand,
my Ina Garten Beef Bourguignon...
à la Grace.
John's not having any
because it's not fancy enough for him anymore.
But you guys should all just help yourself,
and I'm gonna go back and get the potato gratin.
I'm heating something up for you, honey.
Ma, I told you not to make anything special.
Don't worry, it's not special.
It was just gonna be some Bolognese
and some broccoli and bacon.
You know, like what you used to have when you played hockey.
Oh, Faith?
Would you please tell me, though, if it needs more salt,
because, you know, I don't salt.
John, I drove by State College's arena
a couple weeks ago.
I was just wondering, you know,
do you ever think about hockey, any regrets?
Excellent question. Let's get to the bottom of this.
Do you regret the life that's brought you fortune and fame? You gotta, right?
You could have a concussion right now! Think about it!
Pat, you heard the story 100 times. He got hurt.
You were a great hockey player.
You're naturally athletic.
I didn't say anything, Ma!
- Faith? - Uh, it needs salt.
- Ugh! - But just a little bit.
I knew it, I knew it, I knew it!
Oh, do we need wine? A little bit more?
We're good? No, I'll get some. I'll get some.
So, John, what's the big news?
You're ruining the timing for the sauce, Johnny.
Well, now, nothing's official, so I...
He's gonna be Jack Harvest.
Jimmy, what the hell?
Who cares? Who cares?
The universe cares, man! I said I didn't wanna jinx it.
So, then, don't jinx it. You're a fucking stud!
This Jack Harvest, who is he?
I bet he's some sort of famous Democrat
that they're making a bio-documentary on!
Pat, Jack Harvest is a comic-book character,
a sort of superhero.
Oh, I see!
Oh, John, that's so good!
These kinds of movies are popular right now, aren't they?
But it won't last, will it?
Is everything going well so far?
Nothing's going anywhere for now. I'm not cast yet.
- Director loves you. It's done. - The director chose me.
The studio is most likely gonna approve me too.
- We're just waiting on some... - The universe! Fuck yeah!
...negotiations, but nothing's sure.
You got it, man. It's done. It's yours.
I screwed up the sauce. It's too runny. But it's good.
Bon appétit!
Oh, but Don doesn't know
that Sissy's secret lover is hiding in the closet!
So, he comes home early,
all, you know, pumped up to go on their ski trip.
And he goes to the closet, and he opens the door
to get his ski stuff out and go skiing!
Oh, Sissy said she still remembers the look on his face.
The boyfriend just slalomed right out of there, of course!
Oh, God, Faith!
That reminds me of when
you caught that son-of-a-bitch husband of yours
when he was in the cabin with what's-her-name!
Oh God, I never trusted him,
but that was a real hell of a "I told you so"!
Oh God!
I think I need a glass of water.
That's a good idea.
Ma, why don't we hop off Jimmy
and help Auntie Faith get everybody a glass of water?
Oh, Jonathan, don't patronize me now.
I am absolutely not patronizing you, Grace.
Yes, you are!
Anyone, water?
Water? What are we, at church?
Anne, water?
Yes, please!
Maybe no one else wants a drink, Ma.
Yeah, I think we've all had enough.
We're all grown-ups here.
OK, so, um,
everybody wants whiskey except for Anne and John.
Boo! And Amy.
Oops! Boo!
Uh, anyway, you probably shouldn't.
Because of your medication.
Oh!
Clever!
- Let's call it a night, Grace. - Why?
There's still whiskey to drink, Jimmy!
Thanks for having my back!
Hey, fuck you!
Wow!
I know! Why don't you guys spend the night?
'Cause I have cinnamon rolls in the freezer for tomorrow!
I think we're gonna hit the road.
Oh!
Oh, is this a hotel night?
You know, Patty,
John loves to go to a hotel sometimes.
I thought you guys just moved into a new billion-dollar place.
Well, they have, but, you know,
sometimes he needs some peace.
Peace? For what?
Mm-hmm!
Oh! Careful, Amy!
Yeah, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.
Enough, Ma! Enough!
Gracie, I'm gonna get going.
Can you pay attention to people, Ma?
Your sister? Jimmy?
Me? Anything but that fucking bottle!
I'm not a child!
All I ever do is pay attention to you!
And everybody else likes my Beef Bourguignon!
Everybody else likes my coffee!
So why don't you stop being such a snob and just sit down!
You're embarrassing yourself, Ma.
OK, easy. Just relax there, Brad Pitt!
Shut the fuck up!
- You watch your fucking mouth! - Stop!
Jesus Christ! Where did you learn to speak to your elders?
You don't get to tell me to shut the fuck up!
And you don't get to talk to your mother that way.
When I think of what you put her through,
the medications, the bills,
the doctors, the shrinks, the scuffles at school...
You and your goddamn hockey,
and that piece of shit you call a father!
SHUT UP!
I've never been one
to really believe in synchronicity
or destiny or horoscope or anything like that.
No?
But, uh, that night, something in the universe,
yeah, must have just gone...
ka-ching!
What exactly are you implying with that sound you made?
That this sort of synchronicity
isn't just a coincidence.
I actually knew nothing of John's life,
and could never have guessed
that the mistakes we were both about to make
would so dramatically coincide.
Hey!
That's the guy from the fucking show!
Oh! Oh my gosh!
Latte?
Um, my heart might explode.
I promise it won't.
Thanks.
So, you don't remember me, do you?
From before we met last summer, before we hung out.
Before.
I... I'm from, uh, Pleasant Gap.
That's near University Park.
No way!
You studied there, right?
You were playing for the Badgers, the Raging Badgers.
Yeah.
Well, I've been, you know, following all your exploits,
and I read up about you in the newspaper, and...
until you blew up, and then I, uh...
Actually, you kind of...
You kind of inspired me to become an actor.
I broke up with my boyfriend. Well, ex-boyfriend now.
That was pretty bad. But, yeah...
I never ever thought I'd see you again.
It's funny.
Yeah, it's funny.
Why didn't you tell me?
I... I don't know. I thought...
I don't know.
Uh, you wouldn't remember me,
or you wouldn't want me to remember you or...
I don't know.
How's your mom?
I remember she used to come watch you play.
She had a really, really loud laugh.
It was... it was fun!
Yeah, she's fine.
And your brother, Jimmy, right?
Jimmy?
Yeah, I... I...
I can't... I can't do this.
Look, Will...
You're nice, but I...
I mean, you're really nice, but I...
I can't.
This is... This is...
This is wrong.
This is trouble. This is, uh...
I can't afford this.
God!
You're so sweet.
You too.
I mean, you're nice, but...
Thanks for the coffee.
I didn't really understand John's rules then.
- But I think I do now. - Mm-hmm?
How can someone live a constant, permanent lie?
I mean, you have to escape!
There is a moment when the mask...
cracks, right?
I'm sorry, Mr. Turner.
I'm just back from Islamabad. I go to Nigeria next week.
This whole conversation just seems out of this wor...
out of my world.
This must be hard to bear, right?
It is! Yes, it is! It is!
I just... How do I put this diplomatically?
With all due respect, honestly,
as much as I would love to commiserate
with Mr. Donovan's problems, it's...
To me, they're just mishaps from the First World.
You know what I mean?
What are you doing in Prague?
Well, I... I live between here and London.
Oh no, sorry, I meant your real home.
Aren't you from the Congo, the DRC, originally?
I thought I read that last night.
It's hard to know who the interviewer is
with you, Mr. Turner.
Yeah, I was born in Bukavu.
We're digressing. I'm trying...
No, I think we're cutting the bullshit.
Do you feel like you and I come from different planets?
'Cause we don't.
Sorry, why would you be fighting for truth
and I for, uh, for shit?
We're taking this just a little bit personally.
No, you think stories don't travel?
Some kid telling a story.
But you're not a kid anymore,
and you keep referring to yourself as one.
So stop treating me like a fucking child!
This is a story about intolerance.
This is a story about how a business has been so scared
to lose a public it claims illiterate and small-minded,
that it's basically kept it illiterate and small-minded
for decades!
This is about us...
as a society,
what we want, what we seek!
What in there sounds too unreal or unworthy to you?
OK, I didn't mean to upset you.
No, you're putting your life in peril for truth,
and we're strutting around in our First World problems.
God, that notion of privilege
and what people can say or cannot say
if they haven't gone through enough shit in life
to be able to commiserate,
it's a fucking disease!
That's where I come from.
Here.
You and I want the same thing:
Change, impact on the fears of people,
ignorance, bigotry,
sexism, racism, homophobia, name it!
What, did you think you had the monopoly on those battles?
Where were we?
Hey!
I said: "Where were we?
So...
Well, Rupert? We are all ears.
I started to do research on John F. Donovan
about 5 years ago.
When I discovered that we both have many things in common,
like the fact that we both have complicated relationships
with our fathers
and dreamed of acting since a very young age,
I wrote a letter to him.
It was rather foolish of me to think he would answer,
but he did.
Because you're both gay boys.
Cedric, warning number two.
He did, and that is the object I've chosen to talk about.
For almost 6 years now,
John F. Donovan and I have been writing to each other
about once or twice a month.
He tells me everything about his movie shoots
and the art of cinema,
as well as the complexities of it.
He tells me about his premieres, press junkets...
a junket is a press conference with a lot of journalists...
the way he met his wife, Amy,
and how hard it's been with his mother
and how she's reacted to his career.
But that was before he became real famous.
He never stopped writing ever since.
Now, I'm only 11 years old,
but, later, I'll be like him,
and we'll act in movies together.
John, but I like to call him "J,"
often quotes Gore Vidal, an author, critic and essayist.
Who cares?
"Style is knowing who you are."
Well, John F. Donovan knows exactly who he is,
and I know who I am.
I'm an actor, and I'm John F. Donovan's friend.
Bullshit!
Cedric! That's it! Out!
Miss, you must admit it's total bullshit!
It isn't bullshit, fucker!
Ooh!
Stop with the foul language!
You lying little girl!
I got the letters in my backpack, dickhead!
- You're just jealous! - Shut up, bitch!
Cedric, out now!
I think what she's really saying is piss off, Cedric!
Rupert, stay a moment, please!
Cedric, you'll be punished tomorrow.
I won't have rudeness in my classroom!
Come on!
Quickly!
Rupert, come here.
Come on!
Rupert, you are aware of the fact
that I'm gonna have to fail you?
- Why? Wasn't it good? - It was excellent.
And it would've been great
for your story exercise back in September.
You have great writing skills, Rupert.
But I couldn't have been more specific
about the criteria of the exercise!
- It had to be real. - But John F. Donovan is real!
Yes, he is, but you made up that story.
I... I didn't!
You know I appreciate how creative you are.
But, Miss Kureshi, it is true!
- Oh, Rupert! - I swear!
I brought the letters,
but the bell rang, and I just couldn't show 'em to the class!
May I see them?
Rupert?
Well?
Shit!
Nice letters! Thank you so much!
Beautiful! Bye!
Dad, are you even listening to me?
Um, hold on.
Yeah, OK. I'll see you...
Dad!
Pfft!
Helena Bonham Carter!
Who are you?
Hey, Phil!
How are you?
Good weekend?
- Good! - Yeah?
Gil, how's it going?
Nice to see you.
I think we're good here.
OK, great.
I know! I don't know what's going on.
OK, I heard that they met in a bar.
They've been together for months.
Really?
This has been going on for a while.
- Oh my God! - You've met him!
The blond guy he brought on set.
Apparently, there's actually a story online.
- Really? - I haven't read it yet...
Looking good, Johnny!
Pfft!
It's great! He sees an opportunity to perform.
Hey! You don't have the right to read the letters!
Don't worry, mate,
we will respect your privacy.
And my most basic rights, thank you.
Yeah, I mean, do you want us to gift-wrap them for you?
Uh, excuse me, sir?
Um, my son was arrested?
Listen, Liz, Liz, can I talk to you for a second?
I was going to craft.
- Yeah, the thing is... - Yeah?
I need a coffee too. Come here.
What's the deal?
What?
It's probably just spam.
I mean, you weren't even with Will Jefford Jr. this weekend.
Were you?
How you could disappoint me in so many different ways
in the course of a single evening
is nothing short of extraordinary, Rupert Turner.
I am pretty impressive.
You lie to your teachers.
You drag me out of work
to come pick you up at the police station
after you've been arrested for breaking into someone's house!
What the hell, Rupert?
I'm sorry, Mom.
No, sorry isn't good enough!
I want an explanation now!
I've been exchanging letters with John F. Donovan.
The actor from... from the show?
Yes. I've been writing letters to him for 5 years now.
He answered the first one, the one we wrote together.
He wrote back?
Yes.
You never told me?
What did he even write you?
Nothing, just stuff about movies and family and friends.
Acting.
How many letters?
Many.
Like, how many? Five, 10, 20? How many?
100, give or take.
Give... Holy shit, Rupert!
What's the matter with you? How much do you hate me?
Oh!
- Why would you lie to me? - I never lied.
Please! You're a compulsive liar just like your father!
I just didn't say anything!
Excuse my poor choice of words!
You lied, Rupert, and you lied for years!
And I won't be treated like a stranger in our own house.
I'm your mother!
Are you? Because you never ask!
You never ask anything about my acting or my auditions.
It's just bullshit, Mom! It's embarrassing, OK?
It's embarrassing that we left America to come here.
For what? For who?
Dad doesn't even have the time to see me,
so what's the purpose of coming to England
except lying to yourself about this whole great, new life
that you can have away from my friends, my life, my school!
Just because you suddenly realized you failed!
So, no, I never talked about the letters
because you probably would've freaked out
and forbidden me to write to the only person
that seems to care about me
in this utterly stupid, banal, point-fucking-less life
I can't wait to get out of,
away from you, away from this place
and your small dreams and your smallness!
Well, you just said goodbye to that audition in London.
Big frickin' surprise!
You couldn't have it, so neither can I.
RUPERT, SHUT UP!
Oh, it's probably Scotland Yard!
Ma'am, how long has your son been writing to John F. Donovan?
Does he write often?
Do you know what your son writes?
Ma'am! Ma'am!
Oh, fuck!
And now Tom with a frankly bizarre story out of Harrow.
Tell us, Tom, how a TV star and an 11-year-old are connected
to an incident involving the local police?
Can you give us any clarity on this, Tom?
Hey, are we sure about the age? I mean, 11 years old.
That's a load of bollocks. Come on!
Run it, Rhys. Richard wrote it.
Bloody hell! How do you like them apples?
I'm an 18-year-old girl. I have needs. I need you.
I keep having those visions.
The ones from when I healed you?
Sarah, this... That's normal.
The day I saved you, our souls were linked forever.
I can't explain why, but...
- Aw, shit! - What?
Busy weekend, huh, Johnny boy?
Busy boy, right, Johnny?
Uh, yeah.
- Billy! - You all right, my man?
Billy, we're running lines.
Sorry, Miss Jones.
That guy is such a douche. Jesus!
Um, Adam, what about Diego?
He's starting to ask questions. He knows.
We'll just get Bella to visit him in his dreams,
erase his memories.
Ah, fuck me! Give me a fucking break!
John, do you want me to call a set medic?
Uh, yeah, to the ER, please! More press!
Hey, Johnny! So, what's this whole letters thing?
- Speak up, James. - Oh, I'm sorry.
Johnny, what is going on with, uh, the letters?
What letters?
You're writing letters to some kid?
That's cute, uh...
OK. Um, yeah, just keep running your lines.
We got time. They are setting up the rig.
- You've got, like, 20 or... - Thank you.
What did he say? I couldn't hear a word.
Uh, Liz, could you read this link Barbara sent me?
My eyes are killing me.
Loud, but not too loud, 'cause...
"Letters to a child actor and risky sex
"lead to JFD's biggest secret ever."
John, we should be rehearsing.
"The affair went public
"after a schoolyard quarrel was blown out of proportion today
"in Harrow, Greater London, England.
"An 11-year-old boy named Rupert Turner
"broke into private property to steal back
"what he claimed were letters stolen by a schoolmate,
"letters apparently written by John F. Donovan himself.
"This comes shortly after the news broke
"of his involvement in an already viral affair
"involving male prostitutes
"and fellow actor Will Jefford Jr.
"Any connections with the letters..."
- Do you have any meds? - What?
Meds. Clonazepam, Xanax?
You don't have any, uh...
lithium, do you?
- What? - Meds, Liz.
I need some fucking meds. Do you have any?
- I only have natural things. - Oh, fuck me!
Do you want Rescue Remedy?
Hey, Johnny! John, John!
Scale of 1-10, what do you give me?
Huh? What am I?
These fucking morons say you won't give me more than a 5.
Fuck that, right?
OMG, Billy, you are so annoying right now!
Hey, what's, um...
What's with this Brit-kid bullshit?
You writing letters to this kid? Wow, busy weekend, huh?
John, are you all right?
Jesus Christ!
Busy boy, right, Johnny?
How do you like them apples?
You wanna know about my fucking weekend,
you son of a bitch?
You think I wanna tell you
about my fucking weekend?
Don't you fucking touch me!
- Oh my God! - Don't you fucking dare!
Johnny, I'm sorry.
You fucking call me Johnny? Who the fuck do you think I am?
Who the fuck are you?
Uh, Brian, get over here.
Johnny has flipped his shit! Shut up!
I thought we were friends.
No! No, we're not friends, man!
We're not fucking friends!
I come here, I say my fucking lines, and you don't know me.
You don't know my life. You don't know my past.
You don't know my fucking secrets!
And I say hello, and I tell you about my fucking weekend
because if I don't,
you're gonna go out there and tell everybody
what a pretentious piece of shit I am, right?
Yeah? Yeah?
"Don't tell us this bastard never takes a shit
"like the rest of us!"
Well, he sure does, Billy!
He sure as fuck does!
And he's so grateful, and he's so nice,
and he's so fucking happy
that he's gonna tell you all about his fucking weekend!
Shit!
- Next! - Next is "pen pals," I believe.
This one's my favorite, maybe ever!
It's so good.
It's so good, I wanna hear you ask me the question.
All right!
OK, do you have a pen pal?
Child pen pal. Do your job.
Do you have a child pen pal in England?
I mean, why not? Why not England?
They speak English. I speak English.
I mean, it's a match made in heaven, right?
Keep going!
Do you have a written correspondence
with a British child actor?
And have I had it for years?
I mean, in the article I read, and I read 'em all...
I gotta!
I mean, I gotta! How else would I know what I've been up to?
I mean, and I've been busy, man!
I've been really busy!
That's just awful.
Yeah, it wasn't great.
And then did he write back
to say he was sorry, to explain himself?
No, of course, he did.
But, you know, being ignored that night
wasn't what hurt most.
I knew he didn't have a choice. I understood.
And it hurt to understand.
But, no, the consequences for me with the boys, my teacher,
back at the time, were gonna be terrible.
Are you gonna miss your flight?
You know, we can do the rest by email, if you'd like.
No, don't worry.
It's fine.
How much do I owe you for that smile?
Piss off!
Can somebody call an ambulance?
I'm sorry, excuse me.
Is there... is there a doctor on this flight?
I'm reporting unusual behavior.
This is the first signs of a stroke.
Audrey, look at me. Are you smelling burnt toast?
Are you OK?
All right, back to business.
Back to business.
So, what happened then?
You guys are visiting the retirement home today.
And I read in your agenda that you have to be formally dressed.
So let me help you.
It'll be fun, Rupert.
Fun and healthy.
You get to do something nice for someone else,
and it will give you a break from all of this insanity.
Feet!
He said he never wrote the letters.
They're gonna kick my ass.
They're all gonna make fun of me.
I wanna stay here with you, Mom.
Please don't do this to me.
Please don't let me down.
You are never to write to that man again.
Do you understand?
Whether it is true or not, I don't...
It is true!
Do you see what he has done to you?
He... he wrote you off in a heartbeat,
and he would do it again if he needed to.
And that's what this entire business is about.
Look, I know you love this.
But I need you to come down to earth, OK?
Focus on your grades.
You can make a girlfriend.
- Or a boyfriend. - Eww!
Rupert, you have to forget about this.
Today's audition could've changed everything.
For once, they're casting an American film.
Rupert, you can audition again when school is over, OK?
In the summer.
You disappear for a few weeks, you disappear forever.
You did.
I did.
And it would be great
if you didn't remind me about that all the time.
I know you think that I have no ambition, Rupert,
OK, and no strength.
Are you happy?
But if some kid makes fun of you or touches you
or... or some grownup mocks you,
I...
I will have to be that... that boring woman who's so small
and come and protect you, OK?
I never was scared of not succeeding
or losing your father.
But I will always be afraid of seeing you hurt.
And not today, not tomorrow...
probably not for a very long time,
but one day,
you're gonna understand that, OK?
Good morning, Olga. Hello, Catherine.
Timothy, Rodrigue, Kamal.
- Celeste, nice dress! - Thanks, Miss.
Cedric, Giant Shark...
Missing anyone?
Where's Rupert?
Rupert Donovan's missing!
Cedric! Warning number one.
- Ah, come on! - Rupert?
Sarah! Sarah!
Come here!
Oh God!
Oh my God!
Oh no, it's absolutely fine.
Um, do you mind if I come in?
OK, sure. Why not?
Rupert dropped this off at school this morning.
What?
"Dear Miss Kureshi, please don't worry.
"I'm off to London for an audition."
I forbade him from going to that audition, Miss Kureshi.
Miss Turner, I...
I'm sure you did forbid him to go, and I...
I know! I'm not stupid, OK, I just...
Rupert's safe, right? He has a cell phone, doesn't he?
- You can contact him... - He wanted to.
But he's... he's just a boy.
He... he knows the city, though.
He visits his father once a month by himself.
Well, he...
He used to.
OK, well, I have a conference in Bracknell this afternoon,
so I'll have to call his father,
and he will put him on the train back to Harrow.
- All right. - Hmm!
Thank you, Miss Kureshi.
Of course!
Um, I'll... I'll see myself out.
- Miss Turner? - Yes?
Yes?
I see Rupert,
and he has such a brilliant future ahead of him.
You know?
Which is more than I can say
for most of the students I've taught.
I mean, I can see a future for them,
but I rarely see a...
destiny.
And I guess that's why I came here today instead of calling.
Mm-hmm. Well, I... I know my son is special, OK?
I... I'm not blind.
Rupert must be pretty ashamed of me, isn't he?
He's probably telling you all sorts of things about me,
isn't he,
just mocking me to all his friends.
Rupert is a lonely child.
He doesn't open up much to others.
Oh. OK.
He... he...
Well, he used to.
I was going through the children's homework
the other night,
and I realized you hadn't signed this paper by Rupert,
the one about role models.
Well, Rupert's had a correspondence
with a 30-year-old man for 5 years with nobody knowing,
so I guess it's no surprise
that he didn't wanna share his essay with me.
I can't understand why.
Good day.
To choose your mother or father as a role model
is probably unoriginal,
but I reckon there isn't a person I know better,
nor admire more, than my mother, Sam Turner.
Over the past few years,
her and I sort of grew apart, but...
you'll tell me that's life.
Sam got pregnant with me,
and my father left her for another person shortly after
and moved to England.
So she raised me on her own.
And for a while, we were a pretty good match.
Excuse me!
My son Rupert Turner had an appointment at 1:30.
I would take care of her, even call her "love,"
which made me feel like an adult.
But the truth is we were simply best friends.
Rupert!
She called me Larry instead of my real name,
and we watched movies together.
I think we've seen The Secret Garden a billion times.
Rupert!
As she quit acting,
I started to audition for small parts.
Rupert!
I thought she'd be proud of me for doing something
she had once been striving to do.
Rupert!
As the years went by,
Sam became disappointed with how her dreams faded,
and we moved here in search of new ones.
Excuse me, sir, my son is there...
It's been hard for me,
but I understand why Sam needed to become someone else.
It's just hard to admit I do.
I know I'm responsible for the distance between us.
Sometimes, I wish all of our problems
and the invisible wall between us vanished,
that it'd be just the two of us again,
with nothing else to worry about,
with no pride and no lies.
Then I'd tell her the truth.
I'd tell her just how much I love her.
Mom!
- I'm sorry! - I'm so sorry!
I'm stupid!
- You're not mad? - I'm so stupid.
You're not stupid, Mom!
Your teacher came. I knew I'd made a mistake.
- But then I read your essay. - You did?
I didn't wanna hurt you, OK?
I didn't wanna hurt you,
and I'm so sorry that you think I'm small-minded.
You're not! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!
We'll do it, OK?
Rupy, you'll do it, the acting.
And I'm gonna be there for you, OK?
OK.
I think you knew this was coming, didn't you?
Barbara, this can't be serious.
We've been through so much together.
I need you, and...
Say it.
I need you, John?
I don't need anybody.
That's a position I've been avoiding putting myself in
for the past 40 years.
John, darlin'...
Look around you.
Look at the art on the walls. Look at the rug.
Look at that chair you're sitting in.
I chose this life.
Oh, it could've been different,
much, much different.
I could've done it all.
You have no idea the opportunities I turned down
to work with extraordinary actors, just artists,
become a partner in agencies
you'd never imagine me working in...
I don't doubt you, Barbara...
I'm not finished.
I chose this life, John.
Not for want of ambition.
I like money and all the stuff you can do with it. I do.
But I chose this life because it's the one I can live
and in which I can feel that I'm doing right by my job.
I just can't manage the careers of business people.
It's not 'cause I don't like 'em or respect 'em.
I mean, I can be around 'em and among 'em.
But I can't be them.
I'm not a liar.
And if you're gonna be that person, John...
if you're gonna hire models
to be seen with them strolling out of restaurants
and going to your charity balls,
if you're gonna be the person that dismisses people...
tells kids they don't exist...
I won't go down that road with you.
That's a dead end, and I know it.
I'm not dumb. I know you can do it.
I'm sure you can do it.
If that's what you want.
But I'm not doing it with you.
I've just seen too many friends just get lost in that spiral,
that bullshit black hole.
It's just...
It's just a waste of talent
and time never redeemed.
I'm finished.
Barbara, I have Eileen O'Neal for you on line one.
You'll find yourself another manager, Johnny.
It's the best thing for you right now.
I'll tell everybody that you fired me.
Put her through, Melanie.
What if I don't wanna change?
That one's for your shrink.
Eileen, how are you?
I know, I know! I've been meaning to call.
I've been so busy. Things are just great!
How are the kids?
Disney World?
No, I'm good.
No, I'm fine.
Hey!
Um...
Shit, I'm sorry! I should've called.
It's OK.
Um, they took the bus up here for the weekend.
I'm gonna drive them back home for my brother's birthday.
Wow, that's amazing!
Cool.
Uh, I suppose I could come back later?
I don't know if they're staying,
but we could go for a beer or something.
Look, I, uh...
I need to talk.
To me?
Well, yeah.
Uh, no, silent...
Look, I, uh...
I think, um, this whole...
John, I... I like you,
but this... this whole story...
this whole picture thing,
it's just, I don't know.
What, you're, uh, you're ashamed?
No, John.
You are, though.
- Rihanna. - That was Rihanna!
I wish you would've picked up the phone.
Listen, the timing wasn't right.
Look, it's fine. OK?
Honey, come on! Connor needs you!
Hold on one second, Mom.
Sorry, just one minute.
Look, you gotta do what you gotta do, you know?
I... I'm...
I'm young.
And I... I know what I want
and who I am.
And being someone's secret crush
is just nowhere near where I'm headed.
OK?
Um, I'd let you in, but...
Singer? Singing?
Big boobs? Dolly Parton!
It's fine.
I'm sorry.
I sent him a copy of the book,
but never heard back from Will Jefford Jr.
John had mentioned him in the letters, always lovingly,
but no one really seems to know
where Will lives now or what he does.
Hmm...
Word is he's moved back home
and does pretty much everything except act.
Mm-hmm.
Barbara Haggermaker once said in an interview,
one of those Women of Power pieces,
that her greatest failure wasn't dropping John.
No?
It was not knowing him.
When his illness, his past,
when everything about him was revealed,
a lot of people felt that way.
But what should we know of an artist?
What should he reveal of himself,
and why does it matter to us?
So, what became of John?
He just... disappeared.
They sold the apartment.
I think he just went back to the life he once had
not that long ago.
Hellsome High had Adam White leave
on a spiritual journey somewhere in Africa
in the middle of Season 6.
I remember the episode. It was...
It was called "Departure."
Ah! That's fitting.
The man John had attacked on set pressed charges, of course.
They settled. No one ever heard about it again.
Did he write during these months of...
What was it? Do you know?
Isolation? Addiction? Depression?
I wouldn't know because, no,
he didn't write during that period of time.
I mean, I wish I could've been there for John.
But we were miles... We were worlds away.
Life went on.
And John, he'd kept his old habit
of eating in the kitchen of that diner he fancied
and from which he'd so often written me.
He hadn't completely lost touch.
After the London saga,
my mom had allowed me to start auditioning again,
and a sort of serendipitous series of events
and a wide casting
had gotten me a callback in New York.
Of course, I was thrilled,
but mainly because, as we had planned,
I'd be meeting John for the very first time.
The first time in 5 years.
That isn't...
Hellsome High?
It is you, isn't it?
Ha!
I'm sorry. I know that's not your name.
No, that's, uh...
That's a high school. Um, my name is...
John F. Donovan!
I'm not that old.
I'm sure you hate this,
but my grandson is a huge fan of yours.
I was walking with him down Canal Street just the other day
and passed a poster for your show,
and he just got so excited.
He stood in front of that poster around 5 minutes.
He wants to be just like you when he grows up.
Magic powers included, of course.
Does he?
He sure does, yeah.
Well, I don't mean to bother you, you know.
No, you're not. Please.
Oh, aren't you a kind man,
sitting here trying to get some peace and quiet,
and an old fool like me comes squawking in.
No.
No, really, it's...
Well, we'll be waiting for the next great adventure,
then, will we?
- OK. - I don't know, sir.
What?
I don't know anymore.
I, uh...
I feel...
Sorry, I... I feel like...
Talk to me.
I... I feel...
I've done everything wrong.
You know?
I've been thinking...
What if I... What if I don't belong here?
What if I've stolen someone else's place?
Ah, Jesus, say something. Laugh at me or...
Oh dear!
I mean, who am I to contemplate these confessions, really?
Hmm?
I know, I know. I'm s...
I'm sorry. Please go.
I should never have bothered you with any of this.
In my opinion...
things are simple.
People, on the other hand,
have an inexplicable proclivity to make them complicated.
It seems to me you already know you erred,
which is, to say at least, atypical of most people.
But, personally, I look at you,
and all I see is a young man
whose work matters to my grandson.
I mean, how you chose to remedy your wrongs
is yours and God's good businesses.
But the question is...
how could you have stolen a place...
that was made just for you?
Um, I'm sorry, I've never seen you here before.
Well, you see me now.
Blimey! You know, I'd better get going.
Go home.
You're too young for lonely meals in dingy kitchens.
Mom!
Wow!
What are you doing here?
Well, then this is the most perfect night.
So, how's Amy?
Is it, um,
is it because you met someone?
Uh, another person?
Oh, no, no, no!
Don't do this to me. No, come on!
- No, I'm sorry. - You're not gonna leave now!
We're in the middle of a game! Are you kidding me?
Not like "I gotta bail" I'm sorry.
- John! - Mom, I'm... I'm sorry.
I'm... sorry.
I don't know, I...
Fuck, I'm not good at this!
Um, you know, John, that I, um...
I read everything about you.
I mean, everybody gives me every article. Everything.
I see every performance,
all the talk shows, your work, everything.
I follow you and, um...
There's this one thing that you said.
Oh, Ma, what did you read?
You said it on a few occasions.
Um, you said that...
You said that we...
that we came from different planets.
- Oh no, Ma... - And...
John, I...
I come from this planet...
and you come...
from me.
And I know that, um...
I mean, I don't think a mother is supposed to be
her son's friend.
But I know you.
I was the first to.
So, now let's just play cards, OK?
Hey, Ma?
Yeah.
Would you run me a bath and ask me to spell words...
...like we used to?
If that's what you want.
Can I stay here tonight?
Oh, honey, you can stay here for the rest of your life.
This is fun!
Rupert, stop it!
Mom, you should try this!
Stop jumping on the bed. You're gonna break the bed.
You're gonna break the floor. You're gonna break your neck!
I don't know a human being
capable of drying their hair in blue light.
You see how high I can go?
Do you wanna go back to England?
- Mom? - Yeah?
Do you think John's answered my letter yet?
The front desk said that they'd call.
You have to focus on the positive stuff, honey.
Yeah.
It's a full moon tonight.
It's gotta mean something, right?
I guess so.
It will be hard to entirely ignore
this mother-son hotbox on my MySpace.
This one seems like a good one.
"Prandrial"? Oh God, what's that?
"Preprandial."
That's easy.
P-R-E-P-R-A-N-D-I-A-L.
Uh, pertaining to something before a meal.
You are such a nerd.
Is that right?
Sorry, what?
What, that's how you spell it.
Is that right?
Oh yeah! Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Honey, are you OK?
I'm fine, Ma.
Yeah?
I'm fine.
Things are gonna be a bit different, that's all.
Yeah, it's a little scary,
but, you know, you just...
You just have to be yourself.
Eek! Well, that'll be terrible!
Shut up, you little fuck!
What the fuck? Don't be a dick, man!
- Hey! Hey! - Oh! Watch it, boys!
Turn it up.
- Piss off! - I fucking love this song!
- Are you fucking serious? - I know that one!
I'm serious! It's a great song! Turn it up!
Ready for this?
♪♪ Desperate for changing ♪
♪ Starving for truth ♪
♪ I'm closer to when I started ♪
♪ I'm chasing after you ♪
♪ I'm falling even more in love with you ♪
♪ Letting go of all I've held on to ♪
You guys!
♪ I'm standing here until you make me move ♪
♪ I'm hanging by a moment here with you ♪
♪ I'm living for the only thing I know ♪
♪ I'm running and I'm not sure where to go ♪
♪ I don't know what I'm diving into ♪
♪ Just hanging by a moment... ♪♪
I guess that's...
I mean, my story pretty much ends here, Audrey. I mean...
Does it, now?
Well, from what Grace Donovan told me...
That was the last time she and Jimmy,
and anybody, as far as they know,
saw John.
Well, then, if I may ask one final question...
How did you find out?
Yes?
Oh!
OK!
Uh, well, yes, then... then send it up.
Sorry! I just didn't want my son to see the letter just yet.
Otherwise, he'll go mental.
Uh, is it from Mr. Donovan?
Um, no, I'm afraid not, Miss Turner.
A young man dropped it
with the only instruction to give it to Rupert Turner.
Oh! OK.
My apologies.
No, no, no!
Sorry.
- Thank you. - Have a nice day.
"Dear Rupert,
"I have not slept in days, maybe months.
"I will need to find some time to do that...
"and think.
"You know, I've given my all to this life.
"I've worked on my craft, my career, my reputation.
"I've worked on friends, on family.
"In the midst of all that work,
"the thing I've forgotten to work on is myself.
"In the years when most boys became men,
"I became a celebrity.
"Rupert, I wish for you
"to live a life of recognition and fulfillment, yes.
"But, mostly, I wish for you to live.
"Live before you lie.
"It is what this is all about, unavoidably.
"But some lies are some artists' greatest performances.
"And some lies, I think, are a pure beauty.
"But you are too pure to lie now.
"Because I know your fantasies,
"because I know your desires,
"I also know the disappointment,
"the loneliness that you will inescapably feel.
"Rupert, I cannot think
"of a more impressive young man than you.
"I cannot dream of a more thoughtful confidant,
"a more singular friend.
"I was thinking,
"the greatest of our achievements in this friendship
"is that no one really will understand it
"until you want them to.
"I will find my way to you. I promise.
"Soon I will resurface."
John, it's me!
"But for now...
"I need to sleep.
"I just want to sleep
"and start over.
"Your friend, John."
After all this, um,
I won't pretend that I'm not curious to know if he...
If he killed himself?
We'll never really know, will we?
Um, and I don't know anything more than what's in those pages.
Well, either he did kill himself
because he'd sunk into a deep despair, et cetera, et cetera...
But that's the easy version, isn't it?
Or he really did wanna sleep...
and he made a terrible mistake.
Because the last letter,
it suggests that he was full of hope.
Which is why I'm sure you will understand
that, for obvious reasons,
that is the version that I chose to believe.
Hmm!
All right, Rupert.
Thank you.
I'm sorry we got off to a bad start.
No! Don't worry about it, really.
- I'll get the bill. - Yeah. Yeah.
Oh, there's my ride.
- Go! Go! - OK.
Good luck.
Ah, it's only one scene.
No, I mean, not today, obviously,
but I mean with your career, your life.
I hope you get what you want.
I already have what I want.
Then good!
All right, um...
Oh!
Um, I'll see ya.
哦，耶稣！
啊!
约翰，是我！
这是胡说八道，混蛋！
约翰，加油！ 应门！
我有你的盒子。
我的天啊！
哇！这里好香！
天哪！最后一次是什么时候 你打开了一扇窗户？
约翰，你在哪里？ 我没有很多时间。
这里很黑。
你问过 Sid Vicious 死的地方？
约翰？
约翰，你还在吗？
- 信上说了什么？ - 亲爱的，我不知道。
你是什么意思， 你不知道吗？
你说你退货了 到前台。
- 我没有说我不知道。 - 你刚刚做到了。
你说： “亲爱的，我不知道。”
鲁珀特，信 不适合你。
是前台的失误。
然后把它送回去 没有给我看
是无法抑制的吗？
鲁珀特，够了！
妈妈，这是第一次机会 我要见他
经过这么多年。
亲爱的，我知道， 但你有一个重要的一天。
- 你打开了信。 - 是的。
然后你意识到 这不是给我的...
是的，而且我 已经道歉了。
- ...然后把它送回去？ - 是的。
不错，前台 不能发
一封不属于我的信
如果他们没有 一封信
首先。
很明显他们发送了 我给错误的人的信。
所以有一封信在等待 在酒店给我。
是的。很可能是。
好吧，自取其辱 还有什么吃的……
...无论你想要什么，
我会马上给他们打电话。
看，我们去酒店，
我敢肯定会有 一封等着你的信，
你可能会遇到 今天下午晚些时候。
是用绿色墨水写的吗？
什么？
是用绿色墨水写的吗？
我……我不记得了。
亲爱的，一切都好 会没事的，好吗？
我们有令人震惊的突发新闻
现在是 2:31。
有那个电视偶像的话 约翰•弗朗西斯•多诺万去世了
29 岁。
演员声名鹊起
在美国 电视行业，
first as Hellsome High's WV 上的亚当•怀特...
我拥有的东西 忘记工作的是我自己。
这是荒唐的！
没有接待。 这是什么鬼年份？
哦，他妈的看在上帝的份上！
哈尔，是我。 你不能这样做。
我在飞往伦敦的航班上 2点30分。
好吧，我在巴黎的约会 被推了，不是吗？
今天早上收到了你的邮件
我无法回应 因为我的路由器坏了，好吗？
听我说。
所以，我来到了这里 亲自迎接他，
因为我是一个文明的女人， 好的？
但我不是在写这篇文章。 你不能让我这样做。
我不在乎！
只需聘请另一位记者， 推迟面试。
罗伯特他妈的特纳的 哪儿也不去，是吗？
我不在乎 关于取对他的名字，
因为我不这样做。
我什至没有读过 他那本愚蠢的书。
我应该如何进行 采访某人
如果我没有读...
什么，我要写 关于一些演员
谁出土了什么故事 因为他渴望动力？
我有标准，你知道吗？
美好的！好的？
是的，我不想 再和你说话。
我会做的。 嗯嗯，一小时。
如果那个小喷 给了我一点点粗鲁，
我向上帝发誓...
是的！好吧，哈尔！
再见！再见！
你能相信他们还 使用这些旧的付费电话
2017 年在这里？
我可以看到与 东欧其他地区。
生产支付 对于一些糟糕的手机
当我们在这里拍摄时，
但它一直在关闭。
我只会，呃， 只需使用电话。
一分钟后我会和你在一起 这样我们就可以开始采访了。
我太激动了。
我只会，呃， 就在里面……
好的！
...当你 打电话。
2017 年 9 月， “特纳出版回忆录
“由他的整个 与多诺万的通信。
“多诺万死于服药过量。”
唔！
不，请不要着急。 慢慢来。
我的，他们喂你吗 在时代？
纯粹的询问 好奇心，真的。
请不要认为我很时髦。
“那个时髦的演员冲进 新艺术风格装饰的咖啡馆，
“他的头发蓬乱， 穿着褪色的军装夹克。”
我有这种感觉！
我忘了他们允许 你在这里抽烟。
哦，但只是几个 不幸的是，还有几个月。
那么，你做了什么 想到书了吗？
众所周知， 没看过你的书
因为我不应该是 进行这次采访。
因为我们现在都在这里， 让我们开始吧
所以也许 我可以赶上我的航班。
当他们给我发电子邮件时 昨天下午那个
是你 做这件作品，
我读了一些 你的文章。
昨天下午？
你是个多才多艺的人
对于政治记者。
你为此做出了贡献
环境的- 我读过的启示录。
关于那个，呃， 它是什么？西海岸...
- Juan de Fuca 俯冲带。 - 是的！
9.2级地震 会蹂躏西海岸吗？
这应该什么时候 正在发生，已经？
我们是半个 晚了一个世纪。
可能是现在， 可能是10-20年，
到那时我们仍然不会 已经开始了这次采访。
哦，你不是在录音吗？
你想要什么吗？
请双份浓缩咖啡。
她在 外语，
并且从那时起， 他被奴役了。
哦，我很着急 你永远不会得到
使用 第三个人。
现在，我非常喜欢它 如果我们现在可以开始
这样我也许可以 赶上我的航班。
嗯嗯嗯 如果你错过了，
我很确定那件事 可以带你去伦敦。
你要我写吗 这件与否，特纳先生？
是的？好的。
我想每个人 想起丑闻，
信件是如何被揭露的， 等等等等等等……
为什么不备份 一路
事情是如何开始的 你和约翰•F•多诺万？
好吧，我们知道 他们是如何开始的。
他回答了其中一个 你的粉丝来信。
是的。
然后不太可能 通信开始了。
- 嗯嗯。 - 这就是童话。
为什么不倒回...
当仙女 故事结束了？
如果你喜欢。
这一年将是 2006 年。
我已经 11 岁了 那个夏天。
我，呃...
不，我还能闻到 类似气体的气味
他使用的毡尖笔。
我仍然可以听到笔
抓挠 纸张。
我们总是手写每一个 信，从不打字或通过电子邮件发送。
对约翰来说，事情开始了 出错
当他们开始 要很棒。
每个人都开始了 要注意
给街区里的新孩子，
说他是关于 成为下一个大交易。
但对我们来说，曾经 从第一天起就跟着他，
很清楚 他已经是了。
他真的是。
是的！是的！
太棒了，约翰！ 我们得到了它。
谢谢！
不，只是给我一个概要 这次谈话。
你太棒了，亲爱的。
我们会得到照片 批准，对吧，巴布？
是的，你开始了 圣诞节的小马。
这意味着什么？
这是名利场，约翰！
假装它很棒而且 别再做这么大的婊子了。
- 朗达！ - 是的亲爱的！我在这！
干草堆是天才。
- 谢谢，娃娃！ - 谢谢你，芭芭拉。
为什么他们让我这么油腻？
相信我，它的工作。
那整个放荡 矿工看起来很大
在中西部。
所以，普拉达发货了 适合办公室，
和梅尔交付了它 到你的地方。
Miuccia 说“断腿” 然后是一些意大利狗屎
我不明白。
约翰！赛季大结局 是毒品，伙计！
隐藏的摄像头， 那是狗屎！
谢啦。 你真好。
你是真的吗 玩杰克收获？
他是我的最爱 永远的超级英雄！
手指交叉， 但我不确定。
约翰，我非常爱你！
她想 你真可爱。
约翰！约翰！
抱歉，今天就到这里。
我爱你！
我正在吃午饭 下周和克里斯一起。
他知道你是乔治的选择 为杰克收获。
看起来不错，亲爱的！
这不仅仅是 关于我，约翰。
这将意味着世界 如果你在的话，去拉里。
- 你欠他的。 - 我出城了！
- 尽管我很感谢拉里，但我无法克隆自己。 - 感谢上帝！
如果可以，你永远不会接受 你的鸡巴从你自己的嘴里出来。
谢谢你的图片。
不要假装你没有 之前想过。
约翰，今晚的季节 Hellsome High, 的首映
是否有任何提示 亚当的父母
会接受他 他是谁？
我不能破坏它 给大家。
艾米，你在发光 fuego! 谁？
詹巴蒂斯塔•瓦利。
- 哦，那是年份吗？ - 就是现在！
我是最幸运的 世界上的家伙。
鲁珀特！
鲁珀特?
- 鲁珀特！ - 对不起。
我期待着阅读 你今天课堂上的笔记。
我假设它会 全面。
他又在“做同性恋”了！
你的关注 你同学的性取向
正变成 令人震惊的痴迷！
不要笑了！
您必须包括 3个枚举
和 4 个修辞格 我上周二提供的清单。
而且我可以...
大家我愿意 提醒你下周，
你的演讲 星期一到期。
别忘了， 你带进来的东西
必须具有情感意义 在现实生活中给你。
不要告诉我 你在霍格沃茨的周末！
学校有 小时候一直是避难所。
但我变老了
并被介绍 对男人的卑鄙。
好吧，孩子们。
为了在丛林中生存， 你必须变成动物。
但对我来说，这更容易
只是沉入 我自己的头和电视。
嗯！
另一个西方故事 从欺凌中生存。宾果游戏！
嗯，不，但是多年来， 我只关心约翰
还有那个电视节目 他主演的，
我的整个世界都围绕着它 当年旋转。
你有没有说过这个 以前痴迷过别人吗？
呃，什么样的对话者 我们在这里谈论吗？
我不知道， 专业的？
我没见过... 节目名称是什么？
不管怎样，继续吧。
请你再说一遍你的名字？
对不起？
我，呃，我不能 记住你的名字。
奥黛丽。 奥黛丽纽豪斯。
是的。是的，对不起。
那个……
只是不常见 名字，奥黛丽。
你似乎认为我在这里 谈谈一些图标
或极 光荣的工作机构
或者宣传一些 文化发生。
但我来到这里想 我们会谈论影响力
和身份， 你知道，电视。
所以，如果你正在寻找 对于人为的概念
和愚蠢的报价 嘲笑我的商业，
你会失望的。
这和生意无关，好吗？ 这与艺术无关。
这……这是关于一个男人的 挽救一个孩子的生命。
所以，我不在乎 约翰没有才华。
我不在乎那是什么 他做的很荒谬
或者那是什么 他做的是狗屎。
我不在乎他的故事， 在这个时代和时代，
对你来说听起来很糟糕。
我知道我不是 重建阿勒颇，好吗？
我们在同一条船上。
还有那杯咖啡 脱咖啡因，奥黛丽。
好的，继续。
亲爱的，我看不下去了 你再受苦了。
我必须明白。
妈妈，我 17 岁。
或 30。
亚当，告诉我 没有一个是真的。
没有一个是真的……
- 我错过了什么？ - 冷静下来！
我不想错过 还有更多的线条！
地毯上的鞋子！ 好的，妈妈知道了。
她看到他用他的 隐藏的权力。她把他录了下来。
你可以打个招呼。
什么？你好！ 怀特夫人知道吗？
当然！隐藏 本季结局中的相机！
啊啊！
我的天啊！ 你看到他刚刚做了什么吗？
他用他的力量 在她面前！
看！看钥匙！ 看钥匙！
CGI是惊人的！ 看那个！
鲁珀特，你有一个包裹。 我觉得是海报。
我把它留在了你的床上。
好的！
亲爱的，你是什么人？
就像你说的，妈妈。
我与众不同。
开场学分 来了！他们在这儿！
我的天啊！
那是一种新的力量！ 那是一种新的力量！
天哪，这太棒了！ 这真是太神奇了！
鲁珀特，声音！
保持下降。 邻居。
我的天啊！我的天啊！ 天啊！
嘘！
我现在很开心！
妈妈，你还 关注？
来吧，这是 地狱般的高！
我为这一刻而生！ 我就是为了这个从你身上出来的！
保持下降。
- 是的！ - 保持下降。
是的！这很棒！
这就是最好的力量！
感谢上帝！ 感谢您的Hellsome High！
谢谢！ 我就是为此而生的！
我一直在等待 这一刻我一生！
我父亲离开了 我 2 岁的时候，
从那时起，它一直 是我妈妈和我。
离开美国有点
沉淀了一个不加掩饰的 成年了。
我和妈妈， 我们几乎不再说话了。
既然我们已经搬家了，
我基本上是在花钱 我所有的时间都在我的房间里。
学校里的孩子们 在嘲笑我
无论是新人， 儿童演员和...
是的！
...以我自己的观点， 我所有的梦想都消失了。
唯一一个 幸存下来的是......
约翰。
我不会骗你的。
当然，这很难。
他没有英国口音 或根本的能量。
所以我们要找项目
试图投 一个住在这里的美国孩子
或其他非常具体的角色。
我不会假装它是制造出来的 移动对他来说更容易，
但是，嗯， 他会……他会找到自己的位置的。
嗯嗯。
我留下了很多东西， 搬到英国，
但字母紧随其后。
我看到那个飞行员的同一天晚上 在他出演的节目中，
我给约翰写了一封信。
令我惊讶的是，他...
他回答了！
是的！
一开始是一次性的 持续多年。
实际上直到他去世。
“风格就是知道你是谁。”
等一下。
你妈妈不知道？
怎么可能 逃避她的注意？
我的意思是，她从未见过 邮件中的那些信件？
我想很多事情 被我妈妈忽视了
回到当时。
我的意思是，她是... 她不知所措。
她不在家，
而且，我负责 无论如何，邮件。
所以你拦截了他们？
我做到了。
为什么？你不骄傲吗？
我是，但不仅仅是自豪， 我很害怕，
害怕这 很特别的东西，
它会从我身边拿走。
这是我唯一的联系 和我梦想的生活，
所以我保护了它，
直到我想到那天 我会离开那个地方，
成为一名演员...
与约翰合作。
我知道有 外面的整个世界
在其中， 约翰过着他的生活......
...离我很远很远。
艾米和约翰一起长大。
他们一直是朋友。
艾米要搬到纽约
成为一名演员 就像她一直梦想的那样，
他跟了上去。
他们对 人们如何认为是理所当然的
他们在一起 从第一天开始，
他们继续这样做。
一件事导致另一件事......
...主要是为了约翰。
他一直提到 孤独。
我知道这意味着
有一些公司 他买不起。
你是什么意思 “他买不起的公司”？
嗯，在这样的生活中， 在，像，他的，
里面的所有东西和每个人 成为一种风险。
嗯……
是的，注意 你渴望的，
它变成了审查 你正试图逃跑。
约翰经常睡在酒店房间里。
我在其中一个中问过他 早期的字母为什么，
他说这是因为 这让他感觉不那么孤独了，
这看起来很奇怪，一家酒店 房间被定义为孤独。
他后来回答说 这种感觉，呃，缓解了
事实上，大多数 所有其他房间的人
独自一人在 他是同一时间。
我的意思是，它很大
对于纽约市，
而且，呃，你知道， 很谦虚。
有点像狗屎，
但它已经到家了 现在有一点，所以...
不是太……太 也很贵。
当艾米和我第一次 搬进了城市，
我们住在法拉盛附近的皇后区。
一个彻头彻尾的烂摊子。
我们买不起电 在最初的几个月里，
所以我们不得不点亮 整个地方都有蜡烛。
- 妈的！ - 是的。
邻居之一 一直抱怨
他们闻到... 他们闻到了烟味。
当消防员出现时，
我想他们认为 我们牺牲了处女。
我们从来不喜欢处女。
嗯，你是 明天上班？
你在拍吗 现在有什么？
呃，没有。不，我不是 现在工作。
我接到了早上 7:00 的电话 关于地狱，
充满特技的疯狂一天。
哦。是的。
嗯，是的。
哦，我就... 我再喝一瓶啤酒...
……然后我就上路了。
反正我要开始学习了。
我有这个试镜 在星期三...
...我实际上试镜了 对于地狱。
我不能。
你不能？
嗯，嗯……
嗯，我早了 明天开始。
哦，你... 嗯，是的，我...
哥们，你应该 还是休息一下吧。
你有... 早上 7:00？ 太早了。
是的，对不起。
没关系。我会……我会 让我自己出去。
嗯，谢谢你的啤酒。
你知道 所有这些都来自信件？
不是全部。
约翰从来没有把我当作一个孩子， 在一个位置
我读过东西的地方 我不明白。
他很少提及 他的私生活，
不是我，也不是任何人。
只有规则，他说，
如果它们坏了， 那会毁了他。
♪♪我是 愤怒和爱♪
♪郊区的耶稣♪
♪圣经 以上都不是♪
♪稳定的饮食♪
♪汽水和利他林♪
♪没有人死去 为了他们在地狱里的罪孽♪
♪据我所知♪
妈妈，你早起 还是你迟到了？
她星期五会来 如果您的日程安排发生变化。
我正在做我的 Ina Garten 牛肉布吉尼翁。
你最喜欢的！
- 事实并非如此！ - 对不起，从什么时候开始……
2号，请。 我不讨厌它。
...不是布吉尼牛肉 乔纳森，你最喜欢的一餐？
既然你停了 听人说，妈。
请，请 不要叫我乔纳森。
我会做点别的， 只为你。
美好的。我对牛肉很满意。
出了什么问题 用“乔纳森”？
无论如何，我可以 别的东西，亲爱的。
我对牛肉很好。
我们走吧。 让我们看看吧。
别胡闹了！
你没有开车 87 英里 在半夜
为了快乐 我公司的。
他叫威尔。
- 就是这样吗？ - 小威尔杰福德
我们去年夏天认识的， 挂了几次。
好的。
我不知道， 我……我喜欢他。
嗯嗯？
他很可爱。
什么？我是什么 应该说“热”？
为什么，那是个热血沸腾的家伙。
看不到男生 每天那么热。
哦，他妈的闭嘴！
那么，他的交易是什么？
没有交易。
还有多少次 你要不要过来
给我看那个梦幻般的照片 你脸上的笑容就像...
我没有 一个梦幻般的微笑。
是的你是。 你这样走...
艾米呢？
她已经习惯了。
哦，她已经习惯了。 还在继续吗？
我们是。是...
- 我们已经习惯了，詹姆斯。 - 是的。
- 我们没事。 - 好的。
约翰...
你们还是 不明白。
- 不！ - 滚开！
吉姆！吉米！ 混蛋混蛋！
嘿，滚蛋！ 你知道这是怎么结束的。
有什么问题？
小杰福德会...
哇！
这家伙会死在 在我之后至少 4 分钟。
住口！
看看他的每一秒 收集承包词。
那是真的。 你对此印象深刻吗？
他真的很聪明。
哦，是吗？
你去吧，我的王子。
“当然是你 用“U”拼写
因为我们在签约。
约翰一直在走 去他哥哥家
他们的车库仪式 多年。
是的！
吉米告诉我的。
我认为这是其中之一 他生命中唯一的事情
这实际上让约翰...
开心。
- 早上好！ - 早上好！你好吗？
伙计们，这里的这个人， 这是威尔。
虽然我们从来没有 写在信里，
约翰和我达成了共识 在我们的生活中没有回报。
我想邀请 Will 加入 他的世界是约翰自己的方式
无意识的破坏
几乎所有东西 他建造的。
当然， 那时他还不知道。
你呢？
还有……对不起，什么？
你呢？
你说约翰和 你自己在...
您已达到分数 不归路。
嗯……
我很想知道 那是什么
对于一个 10 岁的男孩。
- 嗯，它可以是很多东西。 - 嗯嗯？
但这不是重点。
那么重点是什么， 请问，特纳先生？
重点很多 的孩子被告知
他们或他们的梦想 不存在也不重要
只是因为他们还年轻。
你知道吗？
大多数孩子会相信你 如果你告诉他们。
他们一直告诉我 一次又一次。
但我决定 不要相信他们。
你好，小姑娘。
鲁珀特！你是做什么的 还在这里做吗？
我妈妈迟到了。
你的脸怎么了？
我跌倒了。
我懂了。
“我不能让你上船
“没有你的父母， 年轻人！
“还有另一艘船 三天后出发去美国。”
好残酷！
天哪，我喜欢它！
那里，拿一些。
你很厉害。
拜托，我太可怕了。
继续！
“先生，请，
“我知道你不应该 让人们不用门票就可以上车。”
“我肯定不是！”
哦，对不起，我丢了。
不，没关系。
这是友谊项链吗？
我曾经拥有其中之一。
不，当然不是友谊。 我妈妈也有同样的。
我收到了第一封信 她的名字。
她拿到了第一个 我的信。
哦，多么美丽！
是的。
派对结束了，我猜。
当时你在哪里？ 我担心生病了！
你迟到了， 所以吴小姐开车送我。
没问题。我迟到了 为了给自己做一些标记，所以...
谢谢，Kureshi 小姐。
- 你的脸怎么了？ - 我跌倒了。
进去。我会保重的 一会儿你。
轮到我了 责骂，鲁珀特！
一点都不。
放下他不难。 我住的不是很远。
你知道，我教鲁珀特英语 下午，所以...
我知道你是谁， 库雷西小姐。
嗯，非常感谢 照顾鲁珀特。
我想要名字，鲁珀特。 这是谁对你做的？
你知道的，少一点 翻白眼就好了。
你甚至不 知道发生了什么！
我可以看到发生了什么。 我不是瞎子。
它有什么区别？
嗯，你知道吗，
如果你告诉我 这些孩子是谁
我可以给他们的父母 一个电话。
妈呀，好可怜！ 这不是什么新鲜事。
我还小，我是新人，我在演戏。
一个高个子 谁有3个女朋友
并且在足球队
欺负我。
我惊叹于原创性。
Kureshi 小姐说忽略 人是我们最强大的武器，
顺便一提。
吴小姐 应该写一本书。
Kureshi小姐确实 她在生活中喜欢什么
并且是一个完美的 可靠的成年人。
好吧，鲁珀特，如果我不是 足够酷来帮助你，
帮助自己，好吗？
如果你害怕什么， 你必须站起来面对它。
艾伦•帕里什的父亲 对他说，
然后他被吞没了 进入勇敢者游戏。
那么，接下来就是你了！
你会知道什么 站立和面对事物？
你是第一个 逃跑！
就是这样 你和爸爸做过
就是这样 你是演戏的！
还有你放的那些东西 在我的嘴唇上尝起来像小便！
小子！
哦！
看着你！ 我被服务了吗？
只是在开玩笑！
抱歉我们来晚了。
哦，真是一个惊喜！
我没想到 你们会成功的！
信，上来！
艾米和我应该 去那件事，
但它被取消了。
妈，我不喜欢 脖子上！
我没办法。 你闻起来好香！
那个瑞士军队！
哦，艾米，感觉就像 这是永远的！
我不再穿瑞士军装了。 你知道的。
- 不！什么时候？ - 当我完成青春期。
哦，闭嘴 再给我一个拥抱！
我已经给了你一个拥抱，妈！
我知道，但我不数。 过来，你！
哦，你也闻起来真香！ 你们俩都好香！
你的香水是什么 今晚，妈？
哦！ L'Air du Temps。
你给我带了一些吗 从运河街？
我告诉过你所有这些 香水变质了。
哦，谁在乎？ 谁也说不清。
- 哇！ - 还有我最喜欢的阿姨！
圣耶稣，玛丽和约瑟夫！
- 妈的！ - 这些是鬼吗？
你是亚当怀特吗？
现在，你不会投 对我施咒，是吗？
不！
嘿！哦！
当心！
他不太喜欢 拥抱或抚摸！
- 很高兴见到你，安妮。 - 哦，你也是，亲爱的！
哦，你闻起来真香！
谢谢你。
天哪，艾米！ 看那件外套！
为成功而着装！
哦！格蕾丝，我以为你说 他们做不到。
打赌他是故意的！ “看着我，看着我！”嗯？
但那时他什么时候 准时做任何事？
他的生活和他父亲的故事！
- 哦，太好了！ - 我要打开这酒！
看起来很花哨...
就这么开始了。
费，fi，fo，fum，
我闻到血腥味 牛肉布吉尼翁！
- 哦！ - 哇！
应大众需求，
我的伊娜花园 牛肉布吉尼翁...
格蕾丝。
约翰没有任何
因为不够花哨 对他来说。
但是你们都应该 只是帮助自己，
我要回去 并得到烤土豆。
我在加热一些东西 为你，亲爱的。
妈，我告诉过你没有 做任何特别的事情。
不用担心， 这并不特别。
本来就是 一些肉酱
还有一些西兰花和培根。
你知道，就像你用过的一样 当你打曲棍球时有。
哦，信仰？
请你告诉我， 不过，如果它需要更多的盐，
因为，你知道， 我不加盐。
约翰，我开车经过 州立学院的竞技场
几周前。
我只是 想知道，你知道，
你有没有想过 关于曲棍球，有什么遗憾吗？
很好的问题。 让我们深入了解这一点。
你后悔带来的生活吗 你的财富和名声？你必须，对吧？
你可能有脑震荡 马上！想想吧！
帕特，你听过这个故事 100 次。他受伤了。
你是个很棒的人 曲棍球运动员。
你天生爱运动。
我什么都没说，妈！
- 信仰？ - 呃，它需要盐。
- 啊！ - 但只是一点点。
我就知道， 我知道，我知道！
哦，我们需要酒吗？ 多一点点？
我们好吗？不，我会得到一些。 我会得到一些。
所以，约翰， 有什么大新闻？
你在破坏时机 为了酱汁，约翰尼。
好吧，现在，什么都没有 官方，所以我...
他会是 杰克收获。
吉米，什么鬼？
谁在乎？谁在乎？
宇宙在乎，伙计！ 我说我不想搞砸了。
所以，那么，不要搞砸了。 你真是个混蛋！
这个杰克收获， 他是谁？
我敢打赌他是某种人 著名民主党人
他们正在制作 一部生物纪录片！
帕特，杰克收获是 漫画人物，
一种超级英雄。
我懂了！
哦，约翰，那太好了！
这类电影是 现在很流行，不是吗？
但它不会持久，不是吗？
就是一切 到目前为止一切顺利吗？
什么都不会发生 目前。我还没投。
- 导演爱你。完成。 - 导演选择了我。
工作室最有可能 也会批准我的。
- 我们只是在等待一些... - 宇宙！他妈的是的！
...谈判， 但没有什么是确定的。
你明白了，伙计。 完成。是你的。
我搞砸了酱汁。 它太稀了。但这很好。
胃口好！
哦，但不知道
那个娘娘腔的秘密情人 藏在衣柜里！
于是，他早早回家，
所有，你知道的，打气了 去他们的滑雪之旅。
他走到壁橱前， 他打开门
把他的滑雪用品拿出来 去滑雪！
哦，娘娘腔说她还 记得他脸上的表情。
男朋友刚出轨 就在外面，当然！
哦，上帝，信仰！
这让我想起了什么时候
你抓住了那个王八蛋 你的丈夫
当他在机舱里时 她叫什么名字！
哦，上帝，我从不相信他，
但那是真实的 地狱般的“我告诉过你”！
天啊！
我想我需要 一杯水。
这是个好主意。
妈，我们为什么不跳下吉米
并帮助阿姨信仰 给每个人一杯水？
哦，乔纳森， 现在不要光顾我。
我绝对不是 光顾你，格蕾丝。
是的，你是！
任何人，水？
水？ 在教堂里，我们是什么？
安妮，水？
是的，请！
也许没有其他人 想喝一杯，妈。
是的，我认为 我们都受够了。
我们在这里都是成年人。
好的，所以，嗯，
每个人都想要威士忌 除了安妮和约翰。
嘘！还有艾米。
哎呀！嘘！
反正， 你可能不应该。
因为你的药。
哦！
聪明的！
- 就这样吧，格蕾丝。 - 为什么？
还有 喝威士忌，吉米！
谢谢你的支持！
嘿，去你妈的！
哇！
我知道！你们为什么不 过夜？
因为我有肉桂卷 明天在冰箱里！
我想我们会 上路。
哦！
哦，这是酒店之夜吗？
你知道，帕蒂，
约翰喜欢去 有时去酒店。
我以为你们刚搬家 进入一个新的十亿美元的地方。
嗯，他们有， 但是，你知道，
有时他需要一些平静。
和平？为了什么？
嗯嗯！
哦！小心，艾米！
是的，苹果不会掉下来 离树很远。
够了，妈！足够的！
格雷西，我要走了。
你能注意吗 对人，妈？
你妹妹？吉米？
我？除了 那个该死的瓶子！
我不是孩子！
我所做的只是 注意你！
其他人都喜欢 我的牛肉布吉尼翁！
其他人都喜欢我的咖啡！
所以你为什么不停止存在 这么势利，坐下来！
你很尴尬 你自己，妈。
好，很简单。 放松一下吧，布拉德皮特！
闭嘴！
- 你注意你他妈的嘴！ - 停止！
耶稣基督！你在哪 学会和长辈说话？
你不能告诉我 闭嘴！
你不能说话 那样对你妈妈。
当我想到什么 你让她通过，
药物，账单，
医生，医生， 学校里的混战……
你和你那该死的曲棍球，
还有那块狗屎 你叫爸爸！
住口！
我从来都不是一个人
真正相信 同步
或命运或星座 或类似的东西。
没有？
但是，呃，那天晚上， 宇宙中的某物，
是的，一定是刚走了……
咔嚓！
你到底在暗示什么 用你发出的声音？
那种 同步性
不只是巧合。
其实我什么都不知道 约翰的生活，
而且永远也猜不到
那个错误 我们都准备好了
会如此惊人地重合。
嘿！
就是那个来自 该死的表演！
哦！天啊！
拿铁？
嗯，我的心可能会爆炸。
我保证不会。
谢谢。
所以，你不 记得我，你呢？
从我们去年夏天见面之前， 在我们出去玩之前。
前。
我...我来自 嗯，愉快的差距。
那是近 大学公园。
没门！
你在那里学习的，对吧？
你为 獾，愤怒的獾。
是的。
嗯，我一直，你知道， 追随你所有的功绩，
我读到了你 在报纸上，还有……
直到你爆发， 然后我，呃...
其实你有点...
你有点启发了我 成为一名演员。
我和男朋友分手了。 嗯，现在是前男友。
那很糟糕。 但是，是的……
我从没想过 我会再见到你的。
这很有趣。
是的，这很有趣。
你为什么不告诉我？
我……我不知道。 我想...
我不知道。
嗯，你不会记得我的，
否则你不会想要我 记住你或...
我不知道。
你妈妈好吗？
我记得她以前 过来看你玩。
她真的有一个， 真的大笑。
那是……很有趣！
是的，她很好。
还有你的兄弟， 吉米，对吧？
吉米？
是的，我……我……
我不能... 我不能这样做。
看，威尔...
你很好，但我...
我的意思是，你真的很好， 但是我...
我不能。
这是……这是……
这是错误的。
这是麻烦。 这是，呃...
我买不起这个。
上帝！
你真好。
你也是。
我的意思是，你很好，但是...
谢谢你的咖啡。
我真的没有 了解约翰的规则。
- 但我想我现在知道了。 - 嗯嗯？
人怎么活 一个不变的、永久的谎言？
我的意思是，你必须逃跑！
有一瞬间 当面具...
裂缝，对吧？
对不起，特纳先生。
我刚从伊斯兰堡回来。 我下周去尼日利亚。
这整个对话 只是似乎脱离了这个世界......
离开我的世界。
这一定很难 承受，对吧？
这是！ 是的！这是！
我只是... 我该怎么做 外交把这个？
应有尽有 尊重，诚实，
尽我所能 爱同情
与多诺万先生的 问题，是...
对我来说，他们只是不幸 来自第一世界。
你知道我的意思？
你是做什么的 在布拉格做什么？
嗯，我……我活着 在这里和伦敦之间。
哦不，对不起， 我是说你真正的家。
你不是刚果人吗 刚果民主共和国，最初？
我以为我读过 昨晚那个。
很难知道 面试官是谁
特纳先生，和你在一起。
是的，我出生在布卡武。
我们跑题了。 我正在努力...
不，我想我们是 废话少说。
你觉得你和我 来自不同的星球？
因为我们没有。
对不起，你为什么会 为真理而战
我为了，呃，为了狗屎？
我们只是拿这个 个人一点。
不，你认为 故事不会旅行？
一个孩子在讲故事。
但你不是 小孩子了，
你一直在指 把自己当作一个人。
所以停止治疗我 像个他妈的孩子！
这是一个故事 关于不宽容。
这是一个关于如何 一个企业一直如此害怕
失去它声称的公众 文盲，心胸狭窄，
它基本上保留了它 文盲和心胸狭窄
几十年！
这是关于我们...
作为一个社会，
我们想要的， 我们所寻求的！
里面的声音太 对你来说是不真实的还是不值得的？
好的，我没有 意思是让你心烦意乱。
不，你把你的 为真理而危在旦夕，
我们大摇大摆 我们的第一世界问题。
天哪，这个概念 特权的
人们能做什么 说或不能说
如果他们还没有走 通过生活中足够的狗屎
能够同情，
这他妈是病！
我就是从那里来的。
这里。
你和我想要 同样的事情：
变化，影响 人们的恐惧，
无知，偏执，
性别歧视、种族主义、 同性恋恐惧症，说出它的名字！
什么，你以为你有 垄断那些战斗？
我们刚刚说到哪了？
嘿！
我说： “我们刚刚说到哪了？
所以...
那么，鲁珀特？ 我们都是耳朵。
我开始做研究 关于约翰•多诺万
大约5年前。
当我发现我们俩 有很多共同点，
就像我们都有 复杂的关系
与我们的父亲
梦想着演戏 从很小的时候开始，
我给他写了一封信。
我真是太愚蠢了 以为他会回答，
但他做到了。
因为你们都是同性恋。
塞德里克，第二个警告。
他做到了，这就是目标 我选择谈论。
近6年来，
约翰•F•多诺万和我一直 互相写信
大约一个月一次或两次。
他告诉我一切 关于他的电影拍摄
和电影艺术，
也 它的复杂性。
他告诉我关于 他的首映礼、新闻发布会……
中介人是新闻发布会 和很多记者...
他认识妻子艾米的方式，
有多难 和他的母亲
以及她的反应 到他的职业生涯。
但那是以前 他成了真正的名人。
他从未停止 从此开始写作。
现在，我只有11岁，
但是，以后，我会像他一样，
我们会采取行动 一起看电影。
约翰，但我喜欢 称他为“J”
经常引用戈尔•维达尔的话， 作家、评论家和散文家。
谁在乎？
“风格就是知道 你是谁。”
好吧，约翰•F•多诺万知道 他到底是谁，
我知道我是谁。
我是演员，我是 约翰•F•多诺万的朋友。
废话！
塞德里克！而已！出去！
小姐，你必须承认 这完全是胡说八道！
这不是胡说八道，混蛋！
哦！
别说脏话了！
你个说谎的小女孩！
我收到了信 在我的背包里，白痴！
- 你只是嫉妒！ - 闭嘴，婊子！
塞德里克，现在出去！
我认为她的真实身份 说是生气，塞德里克！
鲁珀特，请稍等！
塞德里克，你会的 明天处罚。
我不会粗鲁 在我的教室里！
来吧！
迅速地！
鲁珀特，过来。
来吧！
鲁珀特，你是 意识到事实
我要 非得让你失望吗？
- 为什么？不是很好吗？ - 这太棒了。
这会很棒
为你的故事练习 回到九月。
你有很棒的 写作技巧，鲁珀特。
但我不能 更具体
关于标准 的练习！
- 它必须是真实的。 - 但约翰•F•多诺万是真实的！
是的，他是，但你 编造了那个故事。
我……我没有！
你知道我很感激 你有多么有创意。
但是，吴女士， 是真的！
- 哦，鲁珀特！ - 我发誓！
我带来了信件，
但是铃响了，我只是 无法向班级展示他们！
我可以看看他们吗？
鲁珀特?
出色地？
拉屎！
漂亮的字母！ 太感谢了！
美丽的！再见！
爸爸，你还 听我说？
嗯，等一下。
是的，好的。 我会见到你的...
爸爸！
噗！
海伦娜•伯翰•卡特！
你是谁？
嘿，菲尔！
你好吗？
周末愉快？
- 好的！ - 是的？
吉尔，怎么样？
很高兴见到你。
我想我们是 这里好。
好的，太好了。
我知道！ 我不知道发生了什么事。
好的，我听说了 他们在一家酒吧相遇。
他们一直 在一起几个月。
真的吗？
这一直在发生 一阵子。
- 我的天啊！ - 你见过他！
金发小伙 他带来了片场。
显然，有 其实网上有个故事。
- 真的？ - 我还没读过...
看起来不错，约翰尼！
噗！
这很棒！他看到一个 表演的机会。
嘿！你没有权利 读信！
别担心，伙计，
我们会尊重 您的隐私。
而我最基本的权利， 谢谢你。
是的，我的意思是，你想要我们吗？ 给你包装礼物？
呃，对不起，先生？
嗯，我儿子被捕了？
听着，丽兹，丽兹， 我可以和你谈谈吗？
我要制作。
- 是的，事情是…… - 是的？
我也需要一杯咖啡。 过来。
这是怎么回事？
什么？
这可能只是垃圾邮件。
我的意思是，你甚至没有 小杰福德这个周末。
你是吗？
你怎么能让我失望 以许多不同的方式
在......的进程中 一个晚上
简直就是 非凡，鲁珀特•特纳。
我印象深刻。
你对老师撒谎。
你拖我下班
来接你 在警察局
在你被捕后 闯入别人家！
什么鬼，鲁珀特？
对不起，妈妈。
不，抱歉还不够好！
我现在想要一个解释！
我一直在交换信件 与约翰•F•多诺万。
演员来自... 从节目中？
是的。我一直在写 给他的信已经5年了。
他回答了第一个， 我们一起写的那个。
他回信了？
是的。
你从来没有告诉过我？
他做了什么 甚至写你？
没什么，只是关于 电影和家人和朋友。
演戏。
多少个字母？
许多。
比如，有多少？ 五、十、二十？多少？
100，给予或接受。
给... 天哪，鲁珀特！
你怎么了？ 你有多恨我？
哦！
- 你为什么要骗我？ - 我从不撒谎。
请！你是个强迫症 像你父亲一样的骗子！
我只是什么都没说！
原谅我的可怜 单词的选择！
你撒谎了，鲁珀特， 你骗了很多年！
而且我不会受到这样的对待 我们自己家里的陌生人。
我是你妈妈！
你是？ 因为你从来不问！
你从不问任何关于 我的表演或试镜。
简直是胡说八道，妈妈！ 这很尴尬，好吗？
尴尬的是 我们离开美国来到这里。
为了什么？为谁？
爸爸甚至没有 见我的时间，
那么目的是什么 来到英国
除了骗自己 关于这整个伟大的新生活
你可以远离 我的朋友，我的生活，我的学校！
只因你突然 意识到你失败了！
所以，不，我从没说过 关于字母
因为你可能 会吓坏的
并禁止我写作 给唯一的人
好像在乎我
在这个完全愚蠢、平庸、 无意义的生活
我迫不及待地想要离开，
离开你， 远离这个地方
和你的小梦想 还有你的渺小！
好吧，你刚刚说再见 去伦敦试镜。
大惊喜！
你不能拥有它， 所以我也不能。
鲁珀特，闭嘴！
哦，应该是 苏格兰场！
女士，你儿子多久了 一直在给约翰•F•多诺万写信？
他经常写作吗？
你知道吗 你儿子写什么？
夫人！夫人！
哦，操！
现在汤姆坦率地说 哈罗的离奇故事。
告诉我们，汤姆，如何成为电视明星 和一个 11 岁的孩子有联系
涉及的事件 当地警察？
你能给我们吗 汤姆，这有什么明确的吗？
嘿，我们确定 年龄？我是说，11岁。
那是一堆废话。 来吧！
运行它，里斯。 理查德写的。
该死的地狱！ 你觉得那些苹果怎么样？
我是一个18岁的女孩。 我有需要。我需要你。
我一直有 那些愿景。
那些来自 我什么时候治愈了你？
莎拉，这... 这很正常。
我救你的那天， 我们的灵魂永远相连。
我无法解释为什么，但是...
- 啊，该死！ - 什么？
忙碌的周末， 哈，强尼小子？
忙碌的男孩，对吧，约翰尼？
嗯，是的。
- 比利！ - 你没事吧，我的男人？
比利，我们正在排队。
对不起，琼斯小姐。
那家伙是这样的 一个冲洗器。耶稣！
嗯，亚当， 迭戈呢？
他开始问问题。 他知道。
我们只会得到贝拉 在他的梦中拜访他，
抹去他的记忆。
啊，操我！ 让我他妈的休息一下！
约翰，你想要我吗 打电话给固定的医生？
嗯，是的，请去急诊室！ 更多新闻！
嘿，强尼！那么，这是什么 整个字母的事情？
- 大声说出来，詹姆斯。 - 哦，对不起。
强尼，怎么回事 有，呃，字母？
什么字母？
你在写信 给某个孩子？
好可爱，嗯……
好的。嗯，是的，保持 运行你的线路。
我们有时间。 他们正在设置钻机。
- 你有，比如，20 或... - 谢谢。
他说什么？ 我一个字都听不见。
呃，丽兹，你能读懂吗 这个链接芭芭拉发给我的？
我的眼睛正在杀死我。
响亮，但不 太大声了，因为...
“给童星的一封信 和危险的性行为
“导致 JFD 的 有史以来最大的秘密。”
约翰，我们应该排练。
“这件事公开了
“在校园争吵之后 今天被吹得不成比例
“在哈罗， 英国大伦敦。
“一个11岁的男孩 名叫鲁珀特•特纳
“闯入私人 偷回来的财产
“他声称是信件 被同学偷了
“显然写的信 约翰•F•多诺万本人。
“这很快就会到来 消息传出后
“关于他参与 一个已经病毒式的事件
“涉及男妓
“和其他演员 小威尔杰福德
“任何连接 和字母……”
- 你有什么药吗？ - 什么？
药物。氯硝西泮，Xanax？
你没有，呃...
锂，你呢？
- 什么？ - 医学，丽兹。
我需要一些他妈的药物。 你有什么？
- 我只有自然的东西。 - 哦，操我！
你想要救援药物吗？
嘿，强尼！ 约翰，约翰！
1-10的规模， 你给我什么？
嗯？我是什么？
这些该死的白痴说你 不会给我超过5。
他妈的，对吧？
天哪，比利，你是 现在好烦！
嘿，什么，嗯...
这是怎么回事 英国小子胡说八道？
你给这孩子写信？ 哇，周末很忙，嗯？
约翰，你还好吗？
耶稣基督！
忙碌的男孩，对吧，约翰尼？
你觉得那些苹果怎么样？
你想知道 关于我他妈的周末，
你这个狗娘养的？
你以为我想告诉你
关于我他妈的周末？
你他妈别碰我！
- 我的天啊！ - 你他妈不敢！
约翰尼，对不起。
你他妈的叫我强尼？ 你他妈以为我是谁？
你他妈是谁？
呃，布赖恩，过来。
约翰尼把他的狗屎翻了！ 住口！
我想 我们是朋友。
不！不，我们是 不是朋友，伙计！
我们他妈的不是朋友！
我来了，我说我他妈的 台词，你不认识我。
你不知道我的生活。 你不知道我的过去。
你不知道 我他妈的秘密！
我打招呼，我告诉你 关于我他妈的周末
因为如果我不这样做，
你要去那里 并告诉大家
多么自命不凡的作品 我是狗屎，对吧？
是的？是的？
“不要告诉我们这个混蛋 从不吃屎
“像我们其他人一样！”
好吧，他肯定会，比利！
他肯定是他妈的！
而且他很感激， 而且他很好
他太他妈高兴了
他会告诉你的 所有关于他他妈的周末！
拉屎！
- 下一个！ - 接下来是“笔友”，我相信。
这个是我最喜欢的 也许永远！
它是那么好。
太好听了，想听你的 问我这个问题。
好的！
好的，你有笔友吗？
儿童笔友。 做好你的工作。
你有儿童笔友吗 在英国？
我的意思是，为什么不呢？ 为什么不是英格兰？
他们说英语。 我会说英语。
我的意思是，这是一场比赛 在天堂，对吧？
继续！
你有吗 书面通信
与英国儿童演员？
我有好几年了吗？
我的意思是，在我阅读的文章中， 我都读了...
我必须！
我的意思是，我必须！不然怎么办 我知道我在做什么？
我的意思是，我一直很忙，伙计！
我真的很忙！
这太糟糕了。
是的，它不是很好。
然后他回信了吗
说他很抱歉， 解释自己？
不，当然，他做到了。
但是，你知道，作为 那天晚上无视
不是最受伤的。
我知道他没有 一个选择。我明白了。
理解起来很痛苦。
但是，不，对我的后果 和孩子们，我的老师，
回到当时， 会很糟糕。
你会 错过航班？
你知道，我们可以做剩下的 通过电子邮件，如果你愿意的话。
不，别担心。
没关系。
我欠你多少 为了那个微笑？
生气！
有人可以打电话吗 一辆救护车？
对不起，对不起。
有没有……有没有 这个航班上的医生？
我在报告 不寻常的行为。
这是第一个 中风的迹象。
奥黛丽，看着我。 你闻到烤面包的味道了吗？
你还好吗？
好的， 回到正题。
那么，当时发生了什么？
你们来访 今天的养老院。
我在你的议程中读到 你必须穿着正式。
所以让我来帮你。
会很有趣的，鲁珀特。
有趣又健康。
你可以做点什么 对别人好，
它会让你休息一下 从所有这些疯狂中。
脚！
他说他从不 写信。
他们会踢我的屁股。
他们都会 嘲笑我。
我想留在这里 和你一起，妈妈。
请不要这样对我。
请不要让我失望。
你永远不要写 再次对那个人。
你明白吗？
是否属实 要不要，我不...
是真的！
你看到什么 他对你做了什么？
他……他把你注销了 在一瞬间，
他会做的 如果他需要的话。
这就是这个 整个业务是关于。
听着，我知道你喜欢这个。
但我需要你 下到地球，好吗？
专注于你的成绩。
你可以交个女朋友。
- 或者男朋友。 - 哇！
鲁珀特，你必须 忘记这个。
今天的试镜本来可以 改变了一切。
这一次，他们正在铸造 一部美国电影。
鲁珀特，你可以试镜 放学后再来一次，好吗？
在夏天。
你消失了几个星期， 你永远消失。
你做到了。
我做到了。
这会很棒
如果你不提醒我 一直都是这样。
我知道你认为 我没有野心，鲁珀特，
好吧，没力气。
你快乐吗？
但如果有些孩子取笑你 或触动你
或者……或者一些大人嘲笑你，
我...
我必须是那个……那个 这么小的无聊女人
来保护你，好吗？
我从不害怕 不成功的
或者失去你的父亲。
但我永远都是 害怕看到你受伤。
而不是今天， 不是明天...
可能不适合 很长一段时间，
但有一天，
你会 明白，好吗？
早上好，奥尔加。 你好，凯瑟琳。
蒂莫西、罗德里格、卡迈勒。
- Celeste，漂亮的衣服！ - 谢谢，小姐。
塞德里克，巨鲨……
想念任何人？
鲁珀特在哪里？
鲁伯特多诺万失踪！
塞德里克！ 第一个警告。
- 啊，来吧！ - 鲁珀特？
莎拉！莎拉！
过来！
天啊！
我的天啊！
哦不，是 绝对没问题。
嗯，你介意吗 如果我进来？
好的。为什么不？
鲁珀特放弃了这个 今天早上在学校。
什么？
“亲爱的吴小姐， 请不要担心。
“我要去伦敦 去试镜。”
我不让他走 参加那次试镜，Kureshi 小姐。
特纳小姐，我...
我确定你确实禁止了他 去，我...
我知道！ 我不傻，好吧，我只是...
鲁珀特很安全，对吧？ 他有手机，不是吗？
- 你可以联系他... - 他想。
但他……他只是个男孩。
他……他知道 城市，虽然。
他拜访了他的父亲 自己一个月一次。
嗯，他...
他曾经。
好的，我有一个会议 今天下午在布拉克内尔，
所以我必须 打电话给他的父亲，
他会让他穿上 火车回哈罗。
- 好的。 - 唔！
谢谢你，Kureshi小姐。
当然！
嗯，我会...我会看到自己出去的。
- 特纳小姐？ - 是的？
是的？
我看到鲁珀特，
他有这样的辉煌 未来在他面前。
你知道？
哪个更 我不能说
对于大多数 我教过的学生。
我的意思是，我可以看到 他们的未来，
但我很少看到...
命运。
我想这就是我来的原因 今天在这里而不是打电话。
嗯嗯。嗯，我……我知道 我儿子很特别，好吗？
我……我不是瞎子。
鲁珀特一定很惭愧 我的，不是吗？
他可能会告诉你 关于我的各种事情，
他不是吗，
只是嘲笑我 给他所有的朋友。
鲁珀特是一个孤独的孩子。
他不开门 对其他人很多。
哦。好的。
呵呵...
嗯，他曾经。
我正在经历 孩子们的作业
那天晚上，
我意识到你还没有签名 鲁珀特的这篇论文，
一个关于榜样的。
好吧，鲁珀特有 一封信函
和一个30岁的男人 5年无人知晓，
所以我想这并不奇怪
他不想 和我分享他的文章。
我不明白为什么。
再会。
选择您的 母亲或父亲作为榜样
可能不是原创的，
但我认为没有 一个我更了解的人，
也不再佩服， 比我妈妈山姆•特纳 (Sam Turner)。
在过去的几年里，
她和我有点像 分开了，但是...
你会告诉我这就是生活。
山姆怀了我，
我父亲离开了她 不久后给另一个人
并搬到了英国。
所以她独自抚养我长大。
有一段时间， 我们是一个很好的匹配。
打扰一下！
我儿子鲁珀特•特纳有 1:30 预约。
我会照顾她， 甚至称她为“爱”，
这让我觉得 像成年人一样。
但事实是 我们只是最好的朋友。
鲁珀特！
她叫我拉里 而不是我的真名，
我们一起看电影。
我想我们已经看到了秘密 花园十亿次。
鲁珀特！
当她停止演戏时，
我开始试镜 用于小零件。
鲁珀特！
我以为她会为我感到骄傲 做某事
她曾经是 努力去做。
鲁珀特！
随着岁月的流逝，
山姆失望了 她的梦想是如何消逝的，
我们搬到了这里 寻找新的。
对不起，先生， 我儿子在那儿……
这对我来说很难，
但我明白为什么 Sam 需要 成为别人。
很难承认我这样做。
我知道我有责任 我们之间的距离。
有时候，我希望 我们所有的问题
和看不见的墙 我们之间消失了，
这只是 我们两个又来了，
没有别的 担心，
没有骄傲，没有谎言。
那我就告诉她真相。
我只想告诉她 我有多爱她。
妈妈！
- 对不起！ - 我很抱歉！
我真笨！
- 你不生气吗？ - 我真蠢。
你不傻，妈妈！
你的老师来了。 我知道我犯了一个错误。
- 但后来我读了你的文章。 - 你有吗？
我不想 伤害你，好吗？
我不想伤害你，
我很抱歉 你认为我心胸狭窄。
你不是！ 对不起！对不起！
我们会做的，好吗？
鲁比，你会做到的， 演技。
而我将成为 给你，好吗？
好的。
我想你知道 这即将到来，不是吗？
芭芭拉， 这不可能是严重的。
我们经历过 这么多在一起。
我需要你，而且...
说吧。
我需要你，约翰？
我不需要任何人。
这是我一直的职位 避免让自己陷入
在过去的 40 年里。
约翰，亲爱的……
看看你周围。
看看墙上的艺术品。 看看地毯。
看那把椅子 你坐在里面。
我选择了这样的生活。
哦，本来可以不一样的，
非常非常不同。
我本可以做到的。
你不知道 我拒绝的机会
与非凡合作 演员，只是艺术家，
成为代理机构的合作伙伴
你永远想象不到我 在工作...
我不怀疑你，芭芭拉...
我还没说完。
我选择了这种生活，约翰。
不是因为没有野心。
我喜欢钱和所有的东西 你可以用它。我愿意。
但我选择了这样的生活 因为这是我能活的
我能感觉到 我的工作做得对。
我只是无法管理职业 的商务人士。
这不是因为我不 喜欢他们或尊重他们。
我的意思是，我可以 在他们周围和他们中间。
但我不能成为他们。
我不是骗子。
如果你要 那个人，约翰……
如果你要雇用模特
和他们一起看 走出餐厅
去你的慈善舞会，
如果你要成为那个人 会让人不屑一顾……
告诉孩子他们不存在...
我不会下去 与你的那条路。
那是个死胡同， 我知道。
我不傻。 我知道你可以做到这一点。
我相信你能做到。
如果那是你想要的。
但我不会和你一起做。
我刚刚见了太多朋友 只是迷失在那个螺旋中，
那个胡说八道的黑洞。
只是...
简直是浪费人才
时间从未赎回。
我完成了。
芭芭拉，我有艾琳•奥尼尔 在第一行为您服务。
你会发现自己 另一位经理约翰尼。
这是最好的事情 现在给你。
我会告诉大家 你解雇了我。
让她通过，梅兰妮。
如果我不想改变怎么办？
那是给你的收缩的。
艾琳，你好吗？
我知道我知道！ 我一直想打电话。
我一直很忙。 事情真是太棒了！
孩子们怎么样？
迪斯尼乐园？
不，我很好。
不我没事。
嘿！
嗯...
妈的，对不起！ 我应该打电话的。
没关系。
嗯，他们坐公共汽车 周末在这里。
我会开车送他们回家 为了我哥哥的生日。
哦真是太精彩了！
凉爽的。
呃，我想我可以 过会儿回来？
我不知道是否 他们留下来，
但我们可以去 啤酒什么的。
看，我，呃...
我需要谈谈。
大部头书？
嗯，是的。
呃，不，沉默……
看，我，呃...
我想，嗯，这整个...
约翰，我……我喜欢你，
但是这……整个故事……
这整个画面的东西，
只是，我不知道。
什么，你是，呃， 你害羞吗？
不，约翰。
不过，你是。
- 蕾哈娜。 - 那是蕾哈娜！
我希望你会 拿起电话。
听着，时机 不对。
看，还好。好的？
亲爱的，加油！ 康纳需要你！
等一下，妈妈。
对不起，就一分钟。
看，你必须 做你必须做的，你知道吗？
我……我是……
我年轻。
而我……我知道 我想要的是
和我是谁。
并且成为某人的 暗恋
差远了 我要去哪里。
好的？
嗯，我会让你进去，但是...
歌手？唱歌？
大胸？ 多莉帕顿！
没关系。
对不起。
我发给他了 这本书的副本，
但从未收到回音 来自 Will Jefford Jr.
约翰曾在 字母，总是充满爱意，
但似乎没有人真正知道
威尔现在住在哪里 或者他做了什么。
嗯……
他已经搬回家了
并且做了很多 除了行动之外的一切。
嗯嗯。
Barbara Haggermaker 曾经 在接受采访时说，
其中之一 权力作品的女性，
她最大的失败 没有放弃约翰。
没有？
它不认识他。
当他的病，他的过去，
当关于他的一切 被发现了，
很多人都有这种感觉。
但是我们应该知道什么 艺术家？
应该怎么做 他暴露了自己，
为什么它对我们很重要？
那么，约翰怎么样了？
他只是……消失了。
他们卖掉了公寓。
我想他刚回去 回到他曾经的生活
不久前。
地狱般的高 让亚当怀特离开
在精神之旅中 非洲某地
第 6 季中期。
我记得那一集。 原来是……
它被称为“出发”。
啊！这很合适。
约翰攻击的那个人 当然是设置压力。
他们安顿下来。没有人 又听说了。
他有没有写过 这几个月...
那是什么？你知道吗？
隔离？瘾？ 抑郁症？
我不知道，因为，不，
他没有写 那段时间。
我的意思是，我希望我能 一直在找约翰。
但我们距离... 我们远在天边。
生活还在继续。
还有约翰， 他保持着他的旧习惯
在厨房吃饭 他喜欢的那个餐馆
从哪个 他经常给我写信。
他并没有完全失去联系。
伦敦传奇之后，
我妈妈允许我 再次开始试镜，
还有一种偶然 一系列事件
和广泛的演员阵容
给我回电了 在纽约。
当然，我很激动，
但主要是因为， 正如我们所计划的，
我会见约翰 第一次。
5 年来的第一次。
那不是...
地狱般的高？
是你，不是吗？
哈！
对不起。我知道 那不是你的名字。
不，那是，呃...
那是一所高中。 嗯，我叫...
约翰•F•多诺万！
我没那么老。
我敢肯定你讨厌这个，
但我的孙子是 你的忠实粉丝。
我和他一起走下来 前几天运河街
并通过了一张海报 为你的表演，
而他只是 太兴奋了。
他站在那个面前 海报大约 5 分钟。
他想像 他长大后的你。
魔法力量 当然包括在内。
他有吗？
他肯定会，是的。
好吧，我不是故意的 打扰你了，你知道的。
不你不是。请。
哦，你不是吗 一个善良的人，
坐在这里试图得到 一些平静和安宁，
还有像我这样的老傻瓜 进来尖叫。
不。
不，真的，这是...
嗯，我们等着 为下一次伟大的冒险，
那么，我们会吗？
- 好的。 - 我不知道，先生。
什么？
我不知道了。
我，呃...
我觉得...
对不起，我……我觉得……
跟我说话。
我……我觉得……
我已经搞定了 一切都错了。
你知道？
我一直在想...
如果我... 如果我不属于这里怎么办？
如果我偷了怎么办 别人的地方？
啊，耶稣，说点什么。 笑我或者...
哦亲爱的！
我的意思是，我该考虑谁 这些告白，真的吗？
唔？
我知道我知道。 IM小号...
对不起。请离开。
我不应该打扰你 与任何这些。
在我看来...
事情很简单。
另一方面，人们，
有一种莫名其妙的癖好 使它们变得复杂。
在我看来 你已经知道你错了，
也就是说，至少可以说， 大多数人不典型。
但是，就个人而言， 我看着你，
我看到的只是一个年轻人
谁的工作很重要 给我的孙子。
我的意思是，你如何选择 纠正你的错误
是你的，也是上帝的 好企业。
但问题是...
你怎么会有 偷了一个地方...
那是专为你做的吗？
嗯，对不起， 我以前从没在这里见过你。
好吧，你现在看到我了。
天哪！你知道， 我还是走吧。
回家。
你太年轻了，不会寂寞 在肮脏的厨房用餐。
妈妈！
哇！
你在这里做什么？
那么这是 最完美的夜晚。
那么，艾米怎么样？
是吗，嗯，
是不是因为你 遇到了某人？
呃，另一个人？
哦，不，不，不！
不要这样对我。 不，来吧！
- 不，我很抱歉。 - 你现在不会离开！
我们正在玩游戏！ 你在开玩笑吧？
不像“我要保释” 对不起。
- 约翰！ - 妈妈，我……对不起。
对不起。
我不知道，我...
卧槽，我不擅长这个！
嗯，你知道，约翰， 那我，嗯……
我读了关于你的一切。
我的意思是，每个人都给我 每一篇文章。一切。
我看到每一个表演，
所有的脱口秀节目， 你的工作，一切。
我跟着你，嗯...
有这件事 你说的。
哦，妈妈，你读到了什么？
你说过 几次。
嗯，你说...
你说我们...
我们来自 不同的行星。
- 哦不，妈... - 和...
约翰，我...
我来自这个星球...
而你来...
从我。
而且我知道，嗯...
我的意思是，我不认为 一个母亲应该是
她儿子的朋友。
但我认识你。
我是第一个。
所以，现在让我们 打牌，好吗？
喂，妈？
是的。
你能帮我洗个澡吗 并要求我拼写单词...
...一如往昔？
如果那是你想要的。
我今晚可以住在这里吗？
哦，亲爱的，你可以留在这里 在你的余生。
这个很有趣！
鲁珀特，住手！
妈妈，你应该试试这个！
别在床上跳了。 你会打破床的。
你会打破地板。 你会断脖子的！
我不认识一个人
能够吹干头发 在蓝光下。
你看我能走多高？
你想回去吗 去英格兰？
- 妈妈？ - 是的？
你认为约翰的 回我的信了吗？
前台说 他们会打电话的。
你必须专注于 积极的东西，亲爱的。
是的。
今晚是满月。
应该是意思 对的东西？
大概吧。
会很难 完全忽略
这个母子热箱 在我的 MySpace 上。
这个好像 像一个好的。
“正餐”？ 天哪，那是什么？
“饭前。”
这很容易。
餐前。
呃，关于某事 饭前。
你真是个书呆子。
那正确吗？
对不起，什么？
什么，就是这样 你拼写它。
那正确吗？
哦耶！ 耶耶耶。
亲爱的，你还好吗？
我很好，妈妈。
是的？
我很好。
事情会有点 不同，仅此而已。
是的，有点吓人
但是，你知道，你只是...
你只是有 做你自己。
哎呀！ 好吧，那将是可怕的！
闭嘴，你这个小混蛋！
什么鬼？ 不要做个混蛋，伙计！
- 嘿！嘿！ - 哦！看吧，孩子们！
把它打开。
- 生气！ - 我他妈的喜欢这首歌！
- 你他妈是认真的吗？ - 我知道那个！
我是认真的！ 这是一首很棒的歌！把它打开！
准备好了吗？
♪♪渴望改变♪
♪渴望真相♪
♪我离开始的时候更近了♪
♪我在追你♪
♪我跌得更厉害了 爱上你♪
♪放下一切 我一直坚持♪
你们！
♪我站在这里 直到你让我动起来♪
♪我要等一会儿 在这里陪你♪
♪我为之而活 我唯一知道的♪
♪我在奔跑 我不知道该去哪里♪
♪我不知道是什么 我正在潜入♪
♪稍等片刻...... ♪♪
我猜那是……
我的意思是，我的故事差不多 到此结束，奥黛丽。我的意思是……
现在可以了吗？
嗯，从什么 格蕾丝•多诺万告诉我...
那是最后一次 她和吉米，
和任何人， 据他们所知，
见过约翰。
那么，如果我可以问的话 最后一个问题...
你是怎么知道的？
是的？
哦！
好的！
嗯，嗯，是的， 然后...然后发送它。
对不起！我只是不想要我的儿子 看到这封信了。
否则，他会精神失常。
呃，是吗 来自多诺万先生？
嗯，不，我害怕 不，特纳小姐。
一个年轻人掉了
用唯一的指令 把它交给鲁珀特•特纳。
哦！好的。
我很抱歉。
不不不！
对不起。
- 谢谢。 - 祝你今天过得愉快。
“亲爱的鲁珀特，
“我已经好几天没睡觉了， 可能几个月。
“我需要找到 有时间去做...
“然后思考。
“你知道，我给了 我为这一生所做的一切。
“我一直致力于我的手艺， 我的职业，我的名誉。
“我为朋友工作过， 关于家庭。
“在所有这些工作中， 1834年
“我忘记的东西 工作是我自己。 1835年
“在那些年 大多数男孩变成了男人， 1836年
“我成了名人。
“鲁珀特，我祝福你 1838年
“过着被认可的生活 和实现，是的。
“但是，大多数情况下， 我希望你活着。
“活在谎言之前。
“就是这样 所有关于，不可避免的。
“但有些谎言是有些 艺术家最伟大的表演。 1843年
“还有一些谎言，我想， 是一种纯粹的美。 1844年
“可是你太纯洁了 现在撒谎。 1845年
“因为我知道你的幻想， 1846年
“因为我知道你的愿望， 1847年
“我也知道失望， 1848年
“那种寂寞 你会不可避免地感觉到。
“鲁珀特，我想不通
"的一个更令人印象深刻的 比你年轻。
“我做梦也想不到 更体贴的知己，
“一个更独特的朋友。 1853年
“我在想， 1854年
“我们最伟大的 这段友谊的成就 1855年
"真的没有人吗 会明白的 1856年
“直到你想要他们。 1857年
“我会找到通往你的路。 我保证。 1858年
“很快我就会重新出现。”
约翰，是我！
“但现在……
“我要睡觉了。 1862年
“我只想睡觉 1863年
“然后重新开始。 1864年
“你的朋友，约翰。” 1865年
毕竟，嗯， 1866年
我不会假装我不是 很想知道他是否... 1867年
如果他自杀了？ 1868年
我们永远不会真正知道， 我们会？
嗯，我什么都不知道 不仅仅是那些页面中的内容。
嗯，要么 他确实自杀了
因为他陷入了深深的 绝望，等等，等等…… 1872年
但这就是 简易版，不是吗？ 1873年
或者他真的 想睡觉... 1874年
他犯了一个可怕的错误。 1875年
因为最后一封信， 1876年
它表明 他充满希望。 1877年
这就是为什么我确定 你会明白的 1878年
出于显而易见的原因， 1879年
那是版本 我选择相信。
唔！
好的，鲁珀特。 1882年
谢谢你。 1883年
很抱歉我们下车了 一个糟糕的开始。 1884年
不！不用担心 关于它，真的。 1885年
- 我去拿账单。 - 是的。是的。 1886年
哦，我的车来了。 1887年
- 去！去！ - 好的。 1888年
祝你好运。
啊，这只是一个场景。
不，我是说， 不是今天，显然， 1891年
但我的意思是 你的事业，你的生活。 1892年
我希望你得到 你想要什么。 1893年
我已经有了 我想要的是。 1894年
那么好！ 1895年
好吧，嗯... 1896年
哦！ 1897年
嗯，我会再见的。